Leaving this house..

urmm...
actually my hse that i stayed for years ni..tuan rumah dh nk jual..i really want to buy this hse..tapi only in august/september baru boleh beli..namun tuan rumah dh tanak tgg lagi,well..mmg plan dia nk beli thn lepas.. but sumthing happen,that money dibwk ke thn ni bulan 8 atau 9...urmmmm..
hvg difficulties with financial and business,career..there is so much to take..but i redha with everything yg tuhan nk uji..mybe time dia belum lagi..so i'll wait..

Its so sad but setiap benda ada hikmah tersendiri..whether we'll realize the moment,lepas kejadian ataupun xkan tau apa hikmah dia smpai ke sudah..semuanya dh tersurat..
ryte now i am waiting dgn penuh debaran terhadap sesuatu yg akan memberi sinar baru pada aku dan seluruh keluarga..benda tu not so big tapi impak dia dalam beberapa bulan mmg bagi satu light..rezeki..

kebelakangan ni i have been stuck with allergies..garu sana garu sini..urmm ye lah after my neighbour pindah we have to keep sum stuffs that they own tapi x muat lori.so my dad had to re arrange the hse..menyebabkan habuk bermaharajalela..erghh gatal gile smpai gatal sgt dh tak garu biar je..merah2 abes tengkuk,tgn...kepala pun gatal gak..

my neighbour tu pun hadapi masalah yg sama,iaitu tuan rumah dh jual rumah dorang sewa tu,..terpaksa pulang ke kedah... skrg ni kitaorang pulak kena the same thing..dh nasib..

I cant believe jugak di tgh2 KL ni ada jugak perangai fitnah memfitnah cam dalam kampung..
Susah nk explain kat sini tp dalam kondo ni sendiri berpuak puak..kata mengata..smpai org tu sakit ati dgn org ini...salah fhm sana salah fhm sini..

my neighbour yg kena pindah tu adalah satu mangsanya..dorang bukannya takde rumah lain kat sini yg boleh pindah masuk..tp disebabkan fitnah..tuan rumah baru tu tanak bg sewa kat dorang sbb tu lah smpai pindah ke kedah terus...kesian sgt2..

sedih klu u guys dapat tahu apa yg dorang hadapi selama dorang disini.. :(
kenapa kita mcm ni...melayu klu tgk melayu lain susah..( xsemua) makin dikeji dan dihina..makin ditolak ketepi..kenapa ye..

HIM ...2

Kisah cinta sy ni mmg sgt panjang..i am not sure cmne i akan tell the story inch by inch kedepan ke blkg with flashback ke tidak..but i will try my best to make whoever read this can get the feel yg sama like me,.cwahhh..
Love is amazing..not just any love..that love yg u know..'ni lah dia'.....

Remember i've told u kisah 'Akan Tiba' the song that i wrote for Rona Roni Makaroni?...Yea i told about the song,lyrics,how its made..the recording..but there's another story..an angle that probably been told but never been written openly about..huhuhu~

Yea..Farouk was there..persahabatan yg terjalin antara kami sejak VMY..was on and off..sbbnya..dia sgt misteri..ada sesuatu ttg dirinya yg sgt rahsia...sejak kenal dia..dia kejap ramah kejap sombong..tak masuk akal bila dipikirkan..lepas VMY tu me and FLAVA ada buat show bersama..masa tu i sedar dorang ni bagus rupanya..talented sgt cuma masalah dalaman dan terlalu peribadi utk diceritakan..
anyway...

Farouk was mysterious..silent..'away'...dalam hati ni asyik bertanya..'apa ada dgn farouk dong'..
dia tak pernah ceritakan apa2..instead dia just on off with me..kdg he called and we can talk for hours..tapi ada time..dia cam benci kt i.. heran..
sbb terlalu kerapnya dia nyer mood swing..i pernah tnya dia..'u ni kenapa'? kejap ok kejap x..dia ckp 'biarlah..bukannya jejas pape pun..he meant our frenship ni sementara..after dis mesti dh tak rapat lagi..dia tak suka nk close2 sgt nnt dia nyampah lak with me if me and FLAVA dh tak rapat lg masa akan dtg (lebih kurang gitu la maksud tersirat beliau)

Thus i said... u know wut.. "i takkan give up utk berkawan dgn u,wpun anggapan dia cmtu towards me( tp pada dasarnya apa dia ckp tu sgt betul...artis/selebriti etc berkawan mmg bermusim..adala yg mmg bff smpai bertahun tahun..tp mostly bermusim..bila dh kerap show/berlakon bersama mmg close giler..pastuh..senyap ..masing2 hang out dgn org lain pulak..thats lumrah..but i keep telling him..
NO..i kwn ikhlas..and i takkan give up dgn u..tak akan..u xyah percaya pun xpe..sbb i akan buktikan jgk nnt...
that was.. 4 years ago...


AKAN TIBA...

When i wrote akan tiba..FLAVA pun ada satu version..version R&B.. masa ni..Farouk kena demam campak..kesian sgt kt dia..i care bout him..tp masa ni dia rasa i care about everyone..diri dia xde special mana pun..tp..seriously..mmg walaupun i ni masa tu jenis care pada semua org...ttp utk org yg nama Farouk ni lain..lain sikit..bukan cinta pun masa ni...bukan istimewa..ttp..lain...tiap kali dia tgk i masa time ni bila pikir blk..renungan dia dalam..jauh..tapi kosong...

ni gambar kami masa buat photoshoot utk cover Akan TIba. blh nmpak lagi kesan campak..masa ni badan dia panas..but still standing doing this all for me..thank u..and lagi terharu..
gambar ni dia buat as dia nyer profile pic for myspace(time ni takde fb lagi)

^ ^

to be continued....

HIM part1.. ( my love story...to share with all)

In 2007..

As i was involved in Persatuan Karyawan Malaysia..i got really close with few artist,and one of em is Hafiz Nafiah yg mula popular dgn Dunia Baru The Movie..
He insisted me join his group utk satu program 'ala explorace' called... VMY( visit malaysia year) GO GREEN..di perlis..
mulanya i cam urmmm biar betul...di perlis pulak tu..3ari kat sana..cam tak yakin..but sbb dia dh xcukup org,yg sepatutnya join dia tu i xingat kenapa dia takley join thats why i had to replace her..our group..Hafiz,Zarina zainoordin,me and baru dikenalkan pada ketika itu..Shahdan Salleh from kump FLAVA..no 3 gangstarz time tuh..femes group ni,tp i only tau nama je..ahli2nya xley cam sgt..ouh ya shahdan now better known as Ahdan 'Pilih Kasih'...

berbelah bagi nk pegi tapi..i am so thankful to Hafiz sbb dia pandai pujuk masuk team dia..very good PR...so i joined them..



PERLIS

Sampai sana,i mmg kekok dgn keadaan,cuba nk suaikan diri,memandangkan Shahdan mmg sgt peramah,and ver y funny i rs selesa nk bckp ckp dgn dia,bila dia introduce ahli2 FLAVA yg lain i tot dorang semua cm dia,.tapi mak aihh.bajet ensem je semua time tuh..huhu(xkenal..)
i tried my best ramahkan diri...bg gula2..2-3 org je amik..yg len bo layan..(sumbunk arr termasuk la si dia..cam best :(
shahdan tak join grup dia as 1 team sbb satu team kena hadkan 4org jerr,FLAVA berlima..sbb tu wujudnya another team..

i want to cut the story simple..

FLAVA mmg x byk berckp sgt,yg ramah is Shahdan,Edd,sekali2 Shafiq berckp dan Arip..tp Farouk..mmg xckp dgn i..cam tak suka i pun ada..
but sgt2 tak sangka..bila dh last night di perlis kami ada makan2 dgn tema "Back To School" he said..... 'Jom amik gambar'... :P.. ( terharunyerr...)


this is our 1st pic together...




to be continued..

Love Change u..

Salam..

I just spend an hour to read back all my postings until the 1st posting..
wow..now i realize the power of diary.. Words that stated ur emotions and feelings at the time,mmg amazing..
i mmg seorang yg pelupa..when i get to read them all back baru la dpt 're live' the moment again..totally awesome..
pada yg tak menulis diary,i seriously recommend it..if u tulis blog,u can always come back and delete it hahaha! like i did..

Bukan sbb apa, to me penyesalan ada lah satu emosi yg paling sukar dilalui..peritnya ya ALLAH mmg tidak terhingga..namun dalam konteks ini..menjaga hati adalah sesuatu yg sgt penting.

Talking about menjaga hati...
i pernah post satu topik yg bertajuk.. 'The Best Thing Ever Happen In My Life'
i sepatutnya tulis..The best thing YET....
cuz i shud hope sumthing better will happen in my life..well that was 2 years ago..i know better that we shud always believe things will get better and better everyday..time to time..