MyDiaryAs Amylea Azizan

Leaving this house..

2011-04-11T14:54:00.003+08:00

urmm...
actually my hse that i stayed for years ni..tuan rumah dh nk jual..i really want to buy this hse..tapi only in august/september baru boleh beli..namun tuan rumah dh tanak tgg lagi,well..mmg plan dia nk beli thn lepas.. but sumthing happen,that money dibwk ke thn ni bulan 8 atau 9...urmmmm..
hvg difficulties with financial and business,career..there is so much to take..but i redha with everything yg tuhan nk uji..mybe time dia belum lagi..so i'll wait..

Its so sad but setiap benda ada hikmah tersendiri..whether we'll realize the moment,lepas kejadian ataupun xkan tau apa hikmah dia smpai ke sudah..semuanya dh tersurat..
ryte now i am waiting dgn penuh debaran terhadap sesuatu yg akan memberi sinar baru pada aku dan seluruh keluarga..benda tu not so big tapi impak dia dalam beberapa bulan mmg bagi satu light..rezeki..

kebelakangan ni i have been stuck with allergies..garu sana garu sini..urmm ye lah after my neighbour pindah we have to keep sum stuffs that they own tapi x muat lori.so my dad had to re arrange the hse..menyebabkan habuk bermaharajalela..erghh gatal gile smpai gatal sgt dh tak garu biar je..merah2 abes tengkuk,tgn...kepala pun gatal gak..

my neighbour tu pun hadapi masalah yg sama,iaitu tuan rumah dh jual rumah dorang sewa tu,..terpaksa pulang ke kedah... skrg ni kitaorang pulak kena the same thing..dh nasib..

I cant believe jugak di tgh2 KL ni ada jugak perangai fitnah memfitnah cam dalam kampung..
Susah nk explain kat sini tp dalam kondo ni sendiri berpuak puak..kata mengata..smpai org tu sakit ati dgn org ini...salah fhm sana salah fhm sini..

my neighbour yg kena pindah tu adalah satu mangsanya..dorang bukannya takde rumah lain kat sini yg boleh pindah masuk..tp disebabkan fitnah..tuan rumah baru tu tanak bg sewa kat dorang sbb tu lah smpai pindah ke kedah terus...kesian sgt2..

sedih klu u guys dapat tahu apa yg dorang hadapi selama dorang disini.. :(
kenapa kita mcm ni...melayu klu tgk melayu lain susah..( xsemua) makin dikeji dan dihina..makin ditolak ketepi..kenapa ye..

HIM ...2

2011-04-11T03:56:00.003+08:00

Kisah cinta sy ni mmg sgt panjang..i am not sure cmne i akan tell the story inch by inch kedepan ke blkg with flashback ke tidak..but i will try my best to make whoever read this can get the feel yg sama like me,.cwahhh..
Love is amazing..not just any love..that love yg u know..'ni lah dia'.....

Remember i've told u kisah 'Akan Tiba' the song that i wrote for Rona Roni Makaroni?...Yea i told about the song,lyrics,how its made..the recording..but there's another story..an angle that probably been told but never been written openly about..huhuhu~

Yea..Farouk was there..persahabatan yg terjalin antara kami sejak VMY..was on and off..sbbnya..dia sgt misteri..ada sesuatu ttg dirinya yg sgt rahsia...sejak kenal dia..dia kejap ramah kejap sombong..tak masuk akal bila dipikirkan..lepas VMY tu me and FLAVA ada buat show bersama..masa tu i sedar dorang ni bagus rupanya..talented sgt cuma masalah dalaman dan terlalu peribadi utk diceritakan..
anyway...

Farouk was mysterious..silent..'away'...dalam hati ni asyik bertanya..'apa ada dgn farouk dong'..
dia tak pernah ceritakan apa2..instead dia just on off with me..kdg he called and we can talk for hours..tapi ada time..dia cam benci kt i.. heran..
sbb terlalu kerapnya dia nyer mood swing..i pernah tnya dia..'u ni kenapa'? kejap ok kejap x..dia ckp 'biarlah..bukannya jejas pape pun..he meant our frenship ni sementara..after dis mesti dh tak rapat lagi..dia tak suka nk close2 sgt nnt dia nyampah lak with me if me and FLAVA dh tak rapat lg masa akan dtg (lebih kurang gitu la maksud tersirat beliau)

Thus i said... u know wut.. "i takkan give up utk berkawan dgn u,wpun anggapan dia cmtu towards me( tp pada dasarnya apa dia ckp tu sgt betul...artis/selebriti etc berkawan mmg bermusim..adala yg mmg bff smpai bertahun tahun..tp mostly bermusim..bila dh kerap show/berlakon bersama mmg close giler..pastuh..senyap ..masing2 hang out dgn org lain pulak..thats lumrah..but i keep telling him..
NO..i kwn ikhlas..and i takkan give up dgn u..tak akan..u xyah percaya pun xpe..sbb i akan buktikan jgk nnt...
that was.. 4 years ago...

AKAN TIBA...

When i wrote akan tiba..FLAVA pun ada satu version..version R&B.. masa ni..Farouk kena demam campak..kesian sgt kt dia..i care bout him..tp masa ni dia rasa i care about everyone..diri dia xde special mana pun..tp..seriously..mmg walaupun i ni masa tu jenis care pada semua org...ttp utk org yg nama Farouk ni lain..lain sikit..bukan cinta pun masa ni...bukan istimewa..ttp..lain...tiap kali dia tgk i masa time ni bila pikir blk..renungan dia dalam..jauh..tapi kosong...

ni gambar kami masa buat photoshoot utk cover Akan TIba. blh nmpak lagi kesan campak..masa ni badan dia panas..but still standing doing this all for me..thank u..and lagi terharu..
gambar ni dia buat as dia nyer profile pic for myspace(time ni takde fb lagi)

^ ^

to be continued....

HIM part1.. ( my love story...to share with all)

2011-04-11T03:22:00.006+08:00

In 2007..

As i was involved in Persatuan Karyawan Malaysia..i got really close with few artist,and one of em is Hafiz Nafiah yg mula popular dgn Dunia Baru The Movie..
He insisted me join his group utk satu program 'ala explorace' called... VMY( visit malaysia year) GO GREEN..di perlis..
mulanya i cam urmmm biar betul...di perlis pulak tu..3ari kat sana..cam tak yakin..but sbb dia dh xcukup org,yg sepatutnya join dia tu i xingat kenapa dia takley join thats why i had to replace her..our group..Hafiz,Zarina zainoordin,me and baru dikenalkan pada ketika itu..Shahdan Salleh from kump FLAVA..no 3 gangstarz time tuh..femes group ni,tp i only tau nama je..ahli2nya xley cam sgt..ouh ya shahdan now better known as Ahdan 'Pilih Kasih'...

berbelah bagi nk pegi tapi..i am so thankful to Hafiz sbb dia pandai pujuk masuk team dia..very good PR...so i joined them..

PERLIS

Sampai sana,i mmg kekok dgn keadaan,cuba nk suaikan diri,memandangkan Shahdan mmg sgt peramah,and ver y funny i rs selesa nk bckp ckp dgn dia,bila dia introduce ahli2 FLAVA yg lain i tot dorang semua cm dia,.tapi mak aihh.bajet ensem je semua time tuh..huhu(xkenal..)
i tried my best ramahkan diri...bg gula2..2-3 org je amik..yg len bo layan..(sumbunk arr termasuk la si dia..cam best :(
shahdan tak join grup dia as 1 team sbb satu team kena hadkan 4org jerr,FLAVA berlima..sbb tu wujudnya another team..

i want to cut the story simple..

FLAVA mmg x byk berckp sgt,yg ramah is Shahdan,Edd,sekali2 Shafiq berckp dan Arip..tp Farouk..mmg xckp dgn i..cam tak suka i pun ada..
but sgt2 tak sangka..bila dh last night di perlis kami ada makan2 dgn tema "Back To School" he said..... 'Jom amik gambar'... :P.. ( terharunyerr...)

this is our 1st pic together...

to be continued..

Love Change u..

2011-04-11T03:09:00.002+08:00

Salam..

I just spend an hour to read back all my postings until the 1st posting..
wow..now i realize the power of diary.. Words that stated ur emotions and feelings at the time,mmg amazing..
i mmg seorang yg pelupa..when i get to read them all back baru la dpt 're live' the moment again..totally awesome..
pada yg tak menulis diary,i seriously recommend it..if u tulis blog,u can always come back and delete it hahaha! like i did..

Bukan sbb apa, to me penyesalan ada lah satu emosi yg paling sukar dilalui..peritnya ya ALLAH mmg tidak terhingga..namun dalam konteks ini..menjaga hati adalah sesuatu yg sgt penting.

Talking about menjaga hati...
i pernah post satu topik yg bertajuk.. 'The Best Thing Ever Happen In My Life'
i sepatutnya tulis..The best thing YET....
cuz i shud hope sumthing better will happen in my life..well that was 2 years ago..i know better that we shud always believe things will get better and better everyday..time to time..

My own artist.. IV (aii-vee) Flava

2010-04-14T17:18:00.003+08:00

I am so proud to present IV FLAVA
diorang ni dulu Finalis GANGSTARZ 2006,tempat ketiga bersama sama dgn 'The Lima' dan Mendua(indonesia)

5 ahli pada mulanya,tapi skrg 2 ahli yg original dh pun mengundur diri

Tinggal 3 org iaitu dari kiri.. Farouk Abd Razak,Shafiq Hasif,and Nasnoor atau Edd..
Diorang skrg bertambah mantap dgn hadirnya anggota baru..
pemenang AIM artis harapan dan juga finalis OIAM3..Ridzuan Sharifuddin - Rizu..

Starting in november last year..kitaorang bergabung dan record lagu ciptaan sy sepenuhnya..
bertajuk 'SOLO'
yg akan keluar tak lama lagi :)
konsep K.pop/Pop fusion..i really hope their fans dulu dan juga my supporters dapat terus support Iv :)

PATUNG

2010-04-13T18:35:00.005+08:00

Wow..
serius sejak 9bulan lepas i takde langsugn mood nk tulis..ari ni nk start dgn apa pun tatau but i just start to write again lah..memandangkan i have things to tell ppl about :)

I have been working on my single - Patung yg telah pun di preview di fanpage Fb..
Booking cd pun telah dibuka disana..

i have been also working with lyrics dan lagu..
and produce my own artist..
cant wait to share more..

2010..RAIN RAIN RAIN

2010-01-10T12:00:00.002+08:00

Sudah la lama tak menulis..tiba2 je masuk sini tanpa introduction..
mmg lama gak takde mood langsung nk menulis...
anyway just nk cakap malam ni im going to AJL..to support my fav band and song..
but i think Aizat has the chance on winning it jugak..

well..

will come back soon.. utk cite2lagi..2010

IKLAN..coming soon entries

2009-08-06T23:58:00.002+08:00

*The worst day of the year!!! dugaan sgt2
*At last i masuk class!! yea yeah..
*flava...

Mini showcase....chill out nite

2009-08-06T23:55:00.002+08:00

Hey everybody yg berdekatan atau pun weekend n jalan2 kat kl ke..
come by @studio cafe 8aug/830pm
NO.9 Jalan Wangsa Delima 10,Wangsa Link Pusat bandar wangsa maju,
Kuala Lumpur, Malaysia
for a nite to chill...An acoustic performance by me!

Looking forward to see all of u laaaa

still surviving and trying to strive..

2009-07-21T19:22:00.005+08:00

LOOKING BACK,
begitu byk rintangan i have gone thru sepanjang 4 tahun ogos ini,
Setiap kali ogos,i will remember the nite kami 'dilepaskan' dari akademi fantasia..the promises and the dreams.....

yea,that time byk betul things going thru my 19 year old head,tapi tak tahu langsung bagaimana nk execute benda2 tu..and i have no idea it was not an easy ride..NOT AT ALL.

my walk was so long yet so much that i gain, i akan muhasabah diri tiap kali tibanya bulan 8 ni,apa yg i got thru out another year,dan alhamdulillah tahun ni menggembirakan biarpun tetap ada duka nya.

i guess thn ni merupakan thn pertama utk betul2 maju ke depan,i trust i wont forget how tough it is,and rasa gembira jugak dgn apa yg dpt diperoleh selama ni,biarpun sedikit... mmg betul pepatah mat saleh tu..'bittersweet'

bila kita lalui byk kepahitan.. kemanisan yg sedikit pun rasa bertuah,..then mybe tuhan tu syg kan umatnya diberi begitu byk kesakitan supaya kita sukar melupakan furthermore akan lebih hargai kehidupan,

i am moving towards another phase lagi this year.,..i am going to record my 2nd album dalam masa yg terdekat...terima kasih pada semua yg memberi impak in my year this time,..you are keeping my music alive!

million love,

aku dan mimpi stays on..

2009-07-20T19:33:00.003+08:00

2 minggu berada dia tangga paling bwh....bersama ngan 'akan tiba'..
minggu ni aku dan mimpi climb back the stairs to no 13...terima kasih pada yg vote lagu aku dan mimpi.. biarpun tak popular di corong2 radio.. but i still dpt trust dari all of you..
akan tiba dh pun tersingkir....very sad cuz i thought akan tiba akan saingi aku dan mimpi tapi nk buat cmne takde rezeki mybe a bad timing..

video klip aku dan mimpi pun dh siap..hopefully everybody will be able to watch it soon on tv..

ouh ya.. i was saying to my manager last week.. tom pasti akan juarai carta.. and he did!
congratz......

part 3...

2009-07-20T16:50:00.002+08:00

arghh its getting boring.. itulah jadinya bila lambat post entry..

but kena sambung jugak......sampai jer di ipoh after many stops... we head off ke kedai makan for lunch.. sedap.. but i am sooo leteyh and nk mandiiii.. muker cam sialll wahahha..
waiting for james to come and pick me up at the hotel..

terus ke soundcheck..ngade betul organizer ni.. i think this is organizer yg paling mengada ngada sepanjang 4 thn.. dan beratus ratus show.... kdg2 i rasa dia saja nk kenakan me..takpela,dlm hati nk cari rezeki jer..

aunty really insisted that i sing for this one show kat lapangan terbang azlan shah.. so james kena budget time for us to travel dari tempat tu dan show lagi satu.. satu starts 830.. satu lagi 930.. so ok la.. we try..

after singing at the RTM thingy... i terus bergegas ke venue seterusnya..urmmm organizer minta i tuka baju lain pulak.. fyi.. organizer ni minta gambar baju yg akan dipakai pdl malam ni.. cam sgt2 pelik..so i wore sumthing else but he insist and memaksa i pakai exactly dlm gambar..
i seriously tertekan.. cuz dh la i am so tired..pastuh i need to work buleh pulak main dgn emotions org masa ni... serious2 tertekan..
bla bla bla.... last2 dia kena terima jgk what i was wearing that nite..cuz client dia pun kata ok,.
i rasa cam 'prostitute' sgt cara dia layan i dgn james..tuhan tlg lah bg kekuatan.

for the 1st time as well. i terpaksa jadi emcee that nite,..i think i sucks..but well takde sape complaint ok lah kot..
org2 pun cam mabuk pulak that nite.. i am guilty as ever..adoiiii.. i am praying time fly as quickly as they can...

abes je terus chow.. we head off to the hotel where flava and aunty is staying to get pur pay for the earlier airport show and also nk tumpang buang make up and solat.

sampai kl.. rasanya 2am kot..i am glad that my overated weekend dh selesai.. syukur alhamdulillah with all the rezeki dan jgk experiences..

part 2..

2009-07-20T16:38:00.002+08:00

so bila bas dh smpai sumer pun bergerak ke kh teluk ketapang..whereby sumer dh tgg dgn bunga manggar la. daun2 yg wangi tu apa ntah yg dibaling2 kat kitaorang pergh cam special jer rasa..
actually i didnt know that acara ni melibatkan homestay.....so ok.. ni kali ke 3 la i terlibat with homestay tapi this time mmg betul2 tido umah org..

to be honest i tak nervous cam before.. i think its about time for me to grow up and not feel so estranged dgn org lain...u see dari kecik mmg i am not the person who alwys sleepover umah org.. tak kira sedara atau pun kawan2.. tanya lah my parents family,cousins or friends.. sgt lah tidak selesa..pernah one time i think i was 9 or 8 years old kononnya berani nk tido umah my uncle.. plan was to sleepover with all my cousins sbb tak puas bermain last2 i bgn tgh2 malam nangis dpn umah diorang nk balik.. huhu.. apalahhhh..

so since then i knew i am not the person yg boleh stay umah org....my work tuntut i utk ke serata tempat,dan thats why la i have a guy manager and a guy assistant so that i dunt have to share the room.. its not them.. its just me.. i am a bit awkward sharing a room with ppl....i really love my privacy.

but ya know what,i give myself a chance this time....my adopted parents were en Yusoof and wife Puan Ani,they're so kind and nice to me,. after picking me up on their car.. they brought me down to the beach for an high tea treats.. very cool.. but i am exhausted..
and then i found out i have sum sorts of activity the next day so i asked them if they can bring me to any stores so that i can buy myself pants and normal shirt..
guess what.. the charming couple g beli for me..arghhh segannyer.. dh lah mahal..
they bought me reebok pants and converse shirt.. aiyooo....

and ...i didnt even go to the beach for that activity cuz i was too tired and i am afraid m not able to perform if i go out to the sun like that..urmm.. but wore the outfit for the day...

the nite came.. and i was the 1st performer to come out.. was awesome. ,.walaupun sebelum show hujan lebat...
there were me..fabulous cats..and few other artists..

after the show come to an end.. kitaorang pun gerak la balik...actually was a bit of confusion of getting back the same nite or fly me home the next morning but aunty just decide to drive back.
so after saying goodbye and what not..pukul 2 pagi cmtu lah gerak dari tganu...next stop IPOH

Wekkend yg melampau penatnyer..huhu part1

2009-07-13T01:58:00.003+08:00

hello diary..(as for 9th july-11th july)
meet again..Khamis pagi kul 530 dh bangun msg kat farouk( FLAVA) dat i mmg giler ngantuk and takleh bgn.. just asking him whether dia dh mandi.. and yg lain dh bgn ke belum.. dia ckp belum so i asked him bgtau i biler sumer dh mandi so dat i leh ngn mandi heheheh..slept around 3am so tulah tkleh nk bgn..

i am going to Kuala Terengganu for a show with RTM..going there with Aunty Shahizan Jelas(RTM) also the mother of Shafiq and Arif from FLAVA..
..in my diary sebelum ni i rasa i have mentioned how close i am with FLAVA.. n how important they are in my life.. lama sgt tak dpt nk hang out sejak OIAM...so dis our first show together selepas sekian lama...cuma kali ni.. without my dear brother Shahdan..while i was still dalam competition,Shahdan decide utk keluar dari FLAVA and pursue a different dream...skrg ni tgh berjuang dlm 'Pilih Kasih" i wish the very very best for the cool dude... i miss him sooo muchhh..

630am..THey arrived kat depan guard,... dlm keta aunty was driving,farouk duk depan..pali beside me..and shafiq kat belakang mcm biasa headphones on all time...
we stopped after entering karak highway for breakfast..shafiq jer tak mkn..then sambung perjalanan..i was sooo lost in my dream..tido giler deeeppp.

sambung perjalanan.. biler dh masuk terengganu.. i believe it was Kemaman.. sumer pun masing2 terjaga dan melihat lihat persekitaran...huh not mentioning perut pun mula berdikir barat..
mission aunty masa tu ialah mencari satar..ouh sata,..or how they spell it pun tatau hehe..then we finally jumpa after more than a half an hour..soon after that berhenti for lunch.. basically kitaorang makan sata tu jer byk smpai kenyang bukan the ultimate salty nasi ayam.. serious masin thp dewa,.
actually rombongan RTM beramai ramai ni menaiki bas and we're suppose to have a special keramaian menyambut kedatangan kami semua so wut to do we have to wait until the others arrive baru lah bleh nk g tempat tinggal and wut not.. then barulah i tau rupanya its going to be a home stay thingy.. it wud be my 3rd time.. tp kali ni wud be a first time to actually sleep at sumone's house....
round2 area KT.. then beli kuih..then round2 kejap sampailah we stop at one mobil station waiting for the bus to arrive..

He Made the whole world sing.............

2009-07-08T15:06:00.011+08:00

.A week had past..
and since that morning when i was woke by my mum...knock on the door.. then she opens ...."michael jackson dah mati"
i was shock..but truly indenial..that day everybody is passing the news of the ultimate legend no longer breathing..

I did not cry..
i did not show sadness..
But i keep on having many flashbacks.. moments when i was a little girl listening to all of his numbers...He was so huge.. that i wonder.. how can he be so great..
While my mother was crying the whole day listening to the radio that is playing all of his hits song as a tribute..i just get out of the way..didnt want to cry.. didnt want to tell myself.. this is bad...real bad..

I was busy with work and trying to let this go away.. its like a bad dream...then we watched his concerts and videos,our cd collection of his..enjoying beat it,billie jean,thriller, from jackson 5 to black or white.. it was so memorable and full of personal memories....
But then one song that make me cry like a baby.. was 'You Rock My World'..i cry cry.. cuz this song was from his last album.. "Invincible'..the album that i actually bought it with my own money,..all previous albums was bought by my parents.. why?? cuz i was too young to go and buy an album but still i can listen and sing to it.. until i can actually save my own money and buy it....He existed in every generation.. and i bought two of that album a cd and a cassette cuz i dont have a cd player.. and i wanted to support him so bad that i bought two..invincible was not as successful album as the previous...and Invincible was out with 4 limited edition colours.. and i bought the blue cassete and the grey cd..i listen to that album over n over n over again...and of course "You Rock My World'.....he seems so fragile and hurt..because of all the rumours and controversy..to be honest i was actually almost believed that he did all that..I am sorry........ but after that i realize people just want to take advantage on this amazing person....
I wonder how on earth he lives everyday with this people keep on talking,keep on accusing him to things that they dont even know about....Me? am just singer in a very very small country..but even that i feel the heat that sometimes burns me....what about him? And i cannot understand why people wants him to be so perfect? he's just a human being. I believe so much that Michael Jackson was a decent man,his heart is so pure and love the nation like no other.. Maybe thats why ALLAH loves him so much that Michael just have to leave this cruel world..
It took me a while before i get to sit down today and write my feelings towards this music intelligent..because.. i watched the memorial last nite..and didnt sleep until sunrise.. wept through out the ceremony cuz for the first time i feel i lost Michael Jackson..and while typing this.. my tears still running down my cheek..fills my eyes until i cant see...
These teardrops is the tears of love,..and sorry.and how i wish.. i could know him more..and can see him more... i wish he had a happy life..i wish i could make him feel better.. and i cry becuz its just too late..further more i am just nobody from far..These tears also the tears of jealousy.. for i envy those people who actually know Michael,who actually met him,saw him in a distance,caught a glimpse of him,shooked his hand,spoke to him,and the millions and millions who were able to watched him performed....ouh my .... i never ever had that chance...and i never will
thats why i am crying...and still until my eyes swelled up..

The sadness that brings at last nite memorial..was a huge impact to the whole world..
Even worse...some people here writes that they did not agree how wonderful Michael Jackson was...
is it jealousy or the lack of knowledge to judge?
Pens in your hand and u think can do anything?? Because the likes of you who destroy his emotions.. makes him a sad man..for all the contribution he did for us..and u say..its just nothing more than just a performer??? My My... u are so STUPID.
He has been a great humanitarian ever lived and u say why wept?
I bet your soul is corrupted!..and no wonder u can only see bad things in people..the pen doesnt belong in your hand..and ur not suppose to put all your devilish attention to paper..You are totally un ethical....people like u.. never change..people like you made no difference!..
ur souless and selfish..
To you people.. i just wanna say F*^K Y*U..very very much..

As we know,Michael Jackson died as a Muslim.. and there's voices saying whats the good of it..they're so mean and heartless..sick people
They actually should feel proud and welcome a kind heart to our religion....
I know many fans pray for him no matter what religion they are...but for us Muslims..
Please search deep in our soul and see him as role model and we should thank him for creating an environment where people stood together because of his songs and story.
Lets appreciate ALLAH's gift to us..Lets appreciate the talent,the man he is.. cuz he was created by ALLAH who creates all of us.
i feel that the world is no longer a good place for the man.. InsyALLAH he will be in a better place,a place is already certain for him.. but still uncertain for us..

AL- FATIHAH..................................................

Gone Too Soon"

Like A Comet
Blazing 'Cross The Evening Sky
Gone Too Soon

Like A Rainbow
Fading In The Twinkling Of An Eye
Gone Too Soon

Shiny And Sparkly
And Splendidly Bright
Here One Day
Gone One Night

Like The Loss Of Sunlight
On A Cloudy Afternoon
Gone Too Soon

Like A Castle
Built Upon A Sandy Beach
Gone Too Soon

Like A Perfect Flower
That Is Just Beyond Your Reach
Gone Too Soon

Born To Amuse, To Inspire, To Delight
Here One Day
Gone One Night

Like A Sunset
Dying With The Rising Of The Moon
Gone Too Soon

Gone Too Soon

aku dan mimpi mendaki..

2009-06-20T18:19:00.002+08:00

Ari ni sbenarnya sgt berdebar debar sudah 3 minggu aku dan mimpi di muzik2 mcm mimpi saja..
and i was almost convince that it will not be in the charts lagi dis week..
seram sejuk bila start muzik2 tadi..
when they talk about ke carta 20-15 i dh takleh duduk diam.. 20 bukan 19 bukan 18 bukan 17 bukan waaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa
confirm outttt

but then bila tgk carta akan tiba no 15 rasa lega..no 11 aku dan mimpi??? waahhh kecoh satu umah! my mum kecoh..... and my father yg tgk tv dlm bilik terus kuar .. tuhan.. 2 org paling aku cintai dalam dunia ni senyum bangga...aku suka expression muka diorang.. tak jemu2 setiap kali diorang wat muka camtu.. either bila lagu aku di nominasi lagu masuk radio..masuk tv masuk majalah akhbar.. muka yg diorang wat tu sgt superb.. heeee

thank you to all ppl yg support lagu 'aku dan mimpi'!! harap dpt excel lebih jauh..(ucapan mengalahkan org yg dpt g AJL hahahaha but i am proud sbb i am nobody..

million thanx.....

THE CLIMB

2009-06-19T03:18:00.003+08:00

I can almost see it.
that dream im dreaming.but there's a voice inside my head sayin' 'You'll never reach it'
Every step i'm taking,every move i make feels.Lost with no direction.My FAITH is shaking.

But i.. gotta keep TRYin' gotta keep my head held high..

There's always gonna be another mountain
im always guna wanna make it move..
always gonna be an uphill BATTLE sumtimes im guna have to LOOSE

Aint about how FAST i get THERE aint about whats waitin on the OTHER side..
its the CLIMB..

the STRUGGLES i'm facing the CHANCES im takin'.. sometimes MIGHT KNOCK ME DOWN..
but im not BREAKING..
I may not know this.. but these are MOMENTS that i'll remember most
JUST GOTTA KEEP GOING

and i gotta be STRONG.. just KEEP PUSHING ON...

Aku dan Mimpi dan Lagi

2009-06-19T01:55:00.004+08:00

Urmm..
sejak i tak dapat nk online for the past week..byk benda i dgr regarding aku dan mimpi,a song i wrote about my deepest feeling,and emotions yg sukar untuk share dgn seantero dunia..
Aku dan Mimpi is my way of expressing apa yg telah berlaku..

Andaian2 yg dibuat pastinya takkan membuka kunci di mulut amylea..susah yer nk say No pun tak boleh bila say NO org akan terus menggali.. bila say YES org akan terus mencaci..
percayalah tuan2 dan puan2.. Aku sindarela,Akan Tiba,Satu Dalam Sejuta,Aku dan Mimpi etc etc lagu2 yg i tulis ada cerita dan inspirasi dari berbagai bagai sudut,berbagai emosi dan rasa..
Lagu2 ni bertujuan untuk luahan perasaan yg bukan hanya untuk penulis tapi how penulis nak sgt2 org yg mendengar dan memahami mengikut intrepretasi tersendiri,,
for me when my song org boleh relate dlm kehidupan mereka sendiri.. thats a pencapaian.. bukan utk mengetahui cerita sebenar..

I told org lagu 'aku dan mimpi ialah kisah cinta sebenar adalah kerana seringkali di tanya maksud lagu dan kenapa lagu itu membawa beban sedih yg melampau..tapi agak terasing dari biasa.. so kerana tidak mau org berkusut berfikir thats why i told people its from itu ini..padahal to be honest.. ia bukan lagu dedikasi.. sbb tiada yg siapa cukup bermakna utk di dedicate apa2 lagu sekalipun its just a story :)

I hope no one will pursue assuming siapa gerangan org yg di maksudkan.. tak kurang ada yg antar pesanan utk mencari bukti.. but..what happen in my life sumtimes.. it remains in my heart and even in a diary pun cannot be said.............................................

.....malam yg sungguh istimewa..

2009-06-06T03:00:00.005+08:00

230 ptg..

i stress sbb knowing half of a dozen tak dpt dtg..tapi its ok.. Ya rabbi mmg sgt la gementar mcm nk luluh jantung takut sgt2 things wont go well,

Tiba di Bangkok jazz..

musisi2 sedia di atas stage tgh sound check ,..a.rghhhh nebes..
when everything set on stage.. i start with akan tiba then with rizu bukan cinta..nk rehearse byk2 lagu tak boleh sbb masa tak cukup.. its almost 5 dan i kena ada balik kat bangkok jazz before 7 sbb dh janji dgn tajul (from Hai!)for interview dan photoshoot.
bergegas ke umah james Iman Ali dah siap tunggu bersama sama berus2 nyer.. FlAVA pun ikut sama bersiap di umah james..

dah siap2 tu terus ke bangkok jazz.. i am so nervous giler sbb dress yg seksi giler waaaahhh.. amir luqman's dress yg mmg cantik tapi i ni yg rasa sgt seksi wawawa...but we plan to salin baju lain for perfomance disebabkan tak sempat i naik stage dgn baju yg sama.. oopppsssss.

Habes sumer2 photoshoot,terus ke meja yg sgt special to me..iaitu 8tv production Oiam3.. ya ALLAH sungguh sungguh terharu to have them coming so early.. i miss them like crazy..anusha,kana,howie,monkey bone edris, after a while our producer kiedd and beloved kind wife pun sampai,arghhhh arghhh.. i am crazy about this people.. i think i am getting all fanatic about 8tv now.. hahaha sampaikan citer cina pun nk bukak niii!!!

actually so many little things yg berlaku2 sekitar sebelum show.. tapi utk tidak membosankan diary sendiri i will skip those part heheh..

Malam2di bangkok jazz i have so many people yg i look up to di situ..
1st nite
abg afdlin shauki yg duduk di tengah2 halaman..betul2 depan stage..wow seriously cam nk mati bila tau dia jejakkan kakinya semata mata for my showcase..doa yg termakbul oleh tuhan..best giler dpt berbicara dgn dia malam tu,the 1st time aku actually talk to him dgn begitu byk perkataan sebelum ni nk ckp hai kat dia pun kena rehearse..such a good feeling bila nyanyi' bukan cinta (lagu ciptaan beliau) dgn Rizu dan dia tersenyum ngan topi dia hehehen

mcm disebut di atas..geng2 8tv..
,nine,rizu( weii sgtbest org2ni) aweera pun ada..AUDI Mok...nikki..all media yg menghargai amylea..terima kasih
Malam kedua my hero Aubrey Suwito!and wife,,Kak JUITA JALIL..i cant thank more..and jemputan2 dari myspace and facebook wow korang rawkssss!!! special thank you pada my supporters yg i hargai.. Bayieng~ terima kasih for the ultimate support for being there fro both nites!!! tq for everything..
Kematz.. tanpa jemu menyokong.. eeeessshhhh tq dear,
iam sorry klu i tak sebut nama2 u guys kat sini but trust me.. i appreciate it so much
Ouh heyy..

Kedua2 malam ini sungguh bermakna dalam hidup amylea azizan..

satu thank u pada seseorang yg percayakan ari ni akan berlaku sebelum sesiapa pun percayakannya ialah En Kaer Azami.. Kaer..thank u for the faith.

Debar menanti hari Jumaat

2009-06-03T14:01:00.002+08:00

adoiiii... nervous nyer.. my heartbeat ari ni tak abes2 berdetak detuk cam giler..
ari ni dh siapkan running show ari jumaat ni.. ish hsambuil type2 kat blog ni pun rasa cam nk explode..chat with audi and he says i will be fine.. but i am so *^%$^$ nervous!!!

Sudah lah ada org2 'besar' dtg rakan2 artis.. and my beloved supporters yg turun,. rasa cam tak boleh nk bernafas,, klu i screw up arghhh gilerr gilerr,.

takut terkucil bila nk bercakap.. today nk rehat sikit sambil2 tgk showcase2 org heheheh.. dan try to pratice a lil bit.. tambah pulak mlm ni our last session waaaahhhhh

GUyss.. minta tolong doa doakan for me ya.. tuhan saja tau betapa pentingnya showcase ni utk i.. sumpah tanak gagal hehehe
this is my true benchmark on what i can do.. sumer org dh bekerja bertungkus lumus.. dan me n james also tak jemu2 promosi.. at the end of the day its about the show!

Sepanjang ari ini...2nd of june

2009-06-03T01:50:00.004+08:00

waaaa lambat...!!!
terbangun lewat and terkejar kejar ke RTM> nasib baik sempat alahai.. rasa cam bersalah sgt!
anyway semuanya berjalan lancar.. :)
nyanyi dua lagu lepak dgn crew jap then chow balik umah.. untuk photoshoot dgn Kosmo! yang insyALLAH kuar jumaat ni..thank kak liza!
Photoshoot pertama with my mum..haihhh mmg susah nk suruh dia buat benda2 ni semua dia mmg tanak..tapi ntah la kali ni pujuk cam ok pulak dia.. only dat dia ckp dh serik sbb tak reti nk posing2 tu semua hahaha.. padan muker mama..sbb salu cam tanak sgt then kali ni kena kaw2 kena pulak photographer adventurous abg zul yg bukan main lagi nk amik mcm2 aksi hahah.. fun!

Selesai berfoto.. terus interview sambil selang2 tu alia call yer lah nk confirmkan transportasi nk ke UITM tgk dia grad.. calling2 best friend i masa sekolah sama2 ngan alia dulu gak.. satu taman,satu bas and mmg forever and ever duduk sebelah2.. klu naim naik dulu dia jaga seat klu i naik dulu i jaga la.. mmg walk together masuk sekolah and balik pun sama.. we're very close and alhamdullilahh.. berkawan sampai skrg.. excited gak nk jumpa naim dh lama giler tak jumpa..
....6 tahun eh.. me alia,farouk n naim kenal.. perghhh it seems like yesterday jer abes PMR..

Bergerak lah i ngan naim ke UITM nasib kakak naim tu lecturer kat sana so sempat g curik(pinjam) sticker kakak dia untuk masuk ke sana.. yerlah kononnnyer dapat la parking dekat sikit ngan dewan tuhhh

sampai sana ingatkan dh nk kuar.. pas2 lama giler tunggu!! kitaorang sampai dalam 2pm.. tapi alia kuar dari dewan 545! boleh? hehehhehe.. siap beli bunga dan tukar bunga lagi.. waaaahhhaaa
naim n me spend berjam jamtogether dalam uitm heheheh.. makan la,.minum la.. tawaf laa..amik gambar.. makan minum. tawaf sekali lagi..mengisi masa lapang sampai sakit kaki..

dari uitm. i got to cancel other stuff untuk spend time dgn alia and naim tapi dh janji dgn fify untuk jumpa aizat..so takperlah deal2..jumpa la kat cap square.. cuz aizat nk tgk gig kat situ..around 10.. so kami bertiga g tgk wayang alia belanja yeahhhh...
we watched 'monsters Vs Aliens... best kelakar.. but sumhow i rasa cam ada citer dreamworks yg lebih kelakar lagi kot.. ntah.. but i enjoyed the movie..

Then abes jer citer terus turun ke Urban Attic.. jumpa fify n aizat.. discuss punya discuss i think we manage to get a song from aizat.. but kawan aizat punya actually.. highly recomended.. and after we talk it out and i pun dh listen to the song three times.. i am sure with a suitable arrangements its a good stuff trust me..
now tgh cari perfomance fify yg terbaik utk composer ni dgr..harap2 everything goes well for my little sister....AMINNN

VOTE FOR 'AKU DAN MIMPI'

2009-06-01T23:40:00.001+08:00

VOTE FOR AKU DAN MIMPI KAT MUZIK-MUZIK!!

TAIP MM A 401 AND HANTAR KAT 33399

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=btCp9na6_7E&feature=related

WATCH THIS!

Ari yg relax sepanjang minggu..

2009-06-01T14:39:00.004+08:00

wow ari ni bgn lewat giler ok.. yerlah smlm pun tido pukul 4 pagi..
bgn jer banyak miscall hehehehe..
dari kak liza kosmo! katanya nk buat photoshoot with me n my mum untuk satu ruangan santai ni.. so lepas pujuk my mum so agree lah esok dalam pukul 12 tengahari tu di kawasan umah ni ha..

HELLO ON TWO

esok i will be at hello on two rtm 2..will be singing 2 songs dan sama2 jadi host untuk esok..
topik dia belum tahu lagi but whatever it is u guys jgn miss it ok!
now nk g add it up kat myspace and also top12's punya blog....

Esok will be a busy day for me..hello on two,then photoshoot,then pegi shah alam cuz my best friend Alia will have dia nyer convo day...so i will go there ..then patah balik kl sbb i will have a meeting dgn aizat.. ada project baru nihh cewaahh cant say it here yet..
urmm then,,ada pratice dgn Flava,, patutnyer today but edd takde keta so terjauh terpisah ke rawang sana.. tunda ke esok.. wow.. cmne lah i nk aturkan semua2 ni.. hope everything will be fine

Ari ni resepsi Yasmin and Fuad

2009-05-31T17:21:00.003+08:00

..its 5.16 pm,and i should get ready now sbb nk gerak ke dewan dalam lepas maghrib mcm tu..
i am performing tonite.. setelah dua kali runthru.. bukan apa sbb musician bertukar..
i am singing andra and the backbone's 'Sempurna" dan Like A star- corrine bailey ray..
urmm malas nk blow rambut arghh
tapi jap gi kena buat.. but now nk approve sum comments kat myspace.. then baru bersiap..
suara serak2 dh ni.. best gak la bunyi dia sexxyyyy hahahha

hope will get to post sum pictures nnt :)

Jumaat Sabtu Ahad yg recent

2009-05-31T17:08:00.005+08:00

LAYAR TANCHAP with Otam n Jaja

Ari jumaat siang nyer,petang2 cmtu.. practice dgn Flava lagi.,.
kat studio jaja.. then abes practice dgn diorang pratice dgn otam pulak sbb dh lama otam ajak jam dgn dia untuk satu show ke apa,, tapi kali ni i betul free..dh lama i teringin nk ke Layar Tanchap ni.. pertama kali dgr tentang LT is when ruffedge bercerita ttg tmpt ni its for freestylers but everytime i mesti ckp i am not ready and i seriously tak pandai nk buat semua2 tu sbb tak confident seyh,, but then after 3 years.. akhirnya terjejak jugak kaki ku ini ke sana..

teruja melihat ramai youngsters yg sanggup dtg lepak sana just to hear 'art making' its amazing, sungguh best..
and i did a 20mins perfomance dgn otam jaja and kwn diorang faiz.. its really cool
cant wait to do it again...
abes je takleh lama i have to go tu pun lepas lepak makan dan minum kat area s.alam jugak..

PENANG TRIP

My flight ke Penang pagi pukul 650am.. arghh
so i tido around 1am and bgn semula around 330 cmtu..kuar umah 430 naik bas ke LCCT dari kl sentral and sampai di penang around 745 am.. perghhh sakitt
me n james terus ke tempat show,,show pun tunda ke tengahari sikit.. so lepak jer lah kat bilik yg disediakan..
aswad pun ada tapi dtg masa tengahari..bakal pengantin baru lagi ..nampak happy jerrhh
dua bakal pengantin yg dijumpai eyh tiga pengantin! sbb yessie pulak kawin ahad.. so 3 lah.. aiyyyy :)

abes je kat situ gerak ke Pacific mall.. sebenarnya ni fast forward byk g benda2 yg jadi.. kelam kabut dgn organizer yg tak betul kejap waktu lain kejap waktu lain.. kejap kat hotel kejap terus ke sana.. waaaa.. 3 flight ticket telah burn disebabkan incident2 itu.. tapi akhirnya sampai juga di mall tu.. dapat jual 4 album.huhu.( honest ni.. ) tapi appreciate that ada org yg membeli nya..
Thank u for supporting my music.. yg dtg amik gambar saja pun i appreciate biasalah organizer ni adajer benda buat hal. dh la tu.. org tatau i akan ada kat situ sbb takde promo... cmne la..tap boleh tahan jugaklah org yg ada disana.. TQ

balik umah dan tido.. another day to come!

Photo shoot dan Muzik Muzik

2009-05-31T16:53:00.003+08:00

.....ermmmmmmmm...penatnyer.. abes practice semalam..pagi2 nk kena gerak ke NSTP..
i have photoshoot dgn Hafiz af7 juara baru kita.. and Aishah af7 juga..just the three of us..sampai sana..masa tgh make up nana dgn brian was doing their shoot,diorang akan kawen 6aribulan ni.. so they looked so happy together.. nana nampak sgt ceria walaupun dia sememangnya sentiasa ceria pun..but kali ni nampak cam sgt2 ceria.. yerlah.. org dh jumpa jodoh mesti seronok kan...uhuhuhu me/? bila lagi ahahhaha

the photoshoot was so fun.. sekali lagi ngan akak fotografer yg capture me during metro shoots ( belum kuar lagi)insyALLAH soon enough..so best la kitaorang shoot kat tempat lama yg best kat bangunan NSTP tu..cooollLnesss

Naik atas tukar2 baju and do my interview sempat berjalan2 jumpa wartawan2 yg ada at the moment bagi invitation Bangkok Jazz,tiba2 me n james terlunch terus kat sana.. dgn abg adam salleh and the gang,.makanan yg tak penah i try sebelum ni..cam unik sikit makanan tu but sedap.. Thank u abg adam..

Bergegas ke Plaza Alam Sentral

sebelum ke Sp2( sri pentas 2) singgah umah james dia burn minus one aku dan mimpi yg baru sbb nk nyanyi live.. tak reti lah miming takut kantoi..this will be my 3rd time buat muzik2 pencalonan..1st dulu ku berserah then aku sindarela now aku dan mimpi..
sampai je nampak Lotter the devine masters duduk sana2 diam2.. tanya diorang dh start belum diorang cukup belum start soundcheck lagi so i pun kuar la kt depan sana makan ringan dulu..sambil tunggu Iman Ali( my make up artist) dtg..

dalam 40 mins camtu gerak masuk ke dalam do my soundcheck then g make up...aizat pun dh sampai dan buat soundcheck..
urmm..gedebak gedebuk dah pukul 7 lebih and audience pun dh sampai so ok lah..nampak la bayeing kat depan sana tu.. thank u la so much sbb dtg kayh...nervous nihh nak baik atas stage..

dh sampai turn untu perform.. tgn semua mengiggil ntah la..,sejak2 kuar ni setiap masa nk perform mesti nervous sbb i just wanna do the best.. dan taknak amik apa2 sambil lewa lagi itu adalah moto terbaru for me.. 'i will not take anything for granted' mcm mana pun akan cuba amik peluang sebaik mungkin.. and surely it will pay off sooner or later..:)

abes muzik2 g practice kat PJ..and bayieng ikut sama.. rasanya cerita2 tu akan ada dlm blog dia nih hehehe

Susulan akitiviti,, Ahad

2009-05-31T14:18:00.005+08:00

urmm.. sepatutnya kuar dari umah around 730 tapi James pun tak boleh nk bgn lagi...sampai my house pun dh 830 ke cmtu la..baru gerak ke kuantan..kami bertiga,James,my PR Redha Fahmy and myself..sakit kepala masih terasa lagi ni...lepas breakfast( takleh nk makan pun sgt cuz tkde selera...masuk je keta..pasang hujan di telinga.. cuz malas nk dgr collection james yg kdg2 i tak suka dgr.. tak berapa minat..tapi diorang berdua enjoy jer lah..

Sambil2 driving tu organizer call.. which is the ppl from utusan..katanya show di awalkan so kami pun mencepatkan lagi perjalanan.. tambahan pulak diorang ckp mila accident ngan monyet so akan lambat sampai.. urmm ok..i pun make up la cepat2.. then terus ke tempat show..'East Coast Mall'

Sampai jer mmg ada org..tapi xdelah ramai sgt.. biasa lah tu klu event baru nk start kurang sikit orgnyer.i sang three songs..tapi dunno why i rasa i perform sucks giler kayh.. mybe emotional yg tak tentu at that time.. tapi ntah la.. takde alasan.. but still i hate the perfomance to guts..siap sms bayieng and sms rizu lagi telling dat i suck!! pastuh jalan2 sekitar tapak promo travel fair tu..tak sabar..and paling penting dapat beli t shirt exclusive di awan biru search.. chantekk.. nnt i will post it here..
abes jer dari situ kitaorang sempat g jumpa rakan2 wartawan yg stay kat hotel ms garden..lepak2 jap sambil bgtau diorang about my Bangkok Jazz..
Perjalanan balik yg penatt waaaa

susulan aktiviti..SABTU

2009-05-28T02:41:00.003+08:00

sabtu yg haru biru.. huhuhu
wake up around 8 ish..or 9 ish..mandi2 bersiap la.. kali ni bersiap lebih sedikit cuz i have to do make up..light one.. cuz ari ni ada shoot dgn Remaja magazine...its like santai with fans..sing them a song and pratically just answer their question..
To be honest i mmg suka melayan soalan2 dari diorang2 ni.. suka sgt bila ada org nk tau sesuatu benda..(psl keja la.. psl how i do sumthing not personal lah hahah)
so i boleh layan sampai berejam pun klu suruh bersembang tentang diri dan juga muzik.its so much fun!
I grab my guitar ans ing two songs di selang seli dgn borak2.. diorang buat ni satu restoran..and restoran ni cam pelik sikit but FOOD? awesomeness la..its called the Four season rest.. tapi satu benda ajer yg telah membuat kan ku sakit 3 ari is dat..
Uniknyer restaurant ni is dia mmg ada 4 musim.. mmg dekorasi nyer mmg specially made for 4 musim.. and guess what pada tengahari itu kami telah di letakkan pada musim salji..
huhuhu winter!
so mcm ais lah dalam tu semua...i ada kuar skejap ke matahari sbb tak tahan...then masuk balik...

PKNS
abes jer aktiviti kat situ terus bergegas ke shah alam.. dalam keta i terus dpt migrain yg amat memeritkan la...berdenyut denyut kepala cam ada satu lagi jantung kat atas mata...adddussss sakit sial..
then sampai jer area s.alam.. i feel cam nk throw up.. just tgg jer bila dh parking cant wait to cari toilet.. punya lama nk berjalan ke toilet,sampai jer terus muntah.. errghhhh ni nak perform ni dalam 20 mins..*^%*(((&%$$^*]
duduk belakang stage cm mayat idup.. nk duduk tak sedap nk baring tak boleh sakit nyerrr
balm harimau tu dh lomor satu kepala but takde tanda2 kelegaan..but at last abes jer perfomance terus masuk baring balik.. why laaa haiyak.. then kuar semula for siging session.. tapi sekejap la jugak cuz i sign rapid fast..bergegas pulang ke umah..patutnyer nk pegi tgk 'Luscious' perform kat M circle,starhill tapi tak jadi lah cuz i cant bare the pain anymore..
brg2 pun tak pack lagi untuk ke kuantan pd besoknyer...

Lokasi Pertama Promosi Album "Selepas 3"

2009-05-20T17:54:00.005+08:00

Album ni mula ada kat pasaran dalam penghujung bulan January 2009,sebab terikat dgn OIAM3,
i cant do any promotion utk album kesayangan ku ini..

But, ari sabtu ni mula buat promotion secara dekat dgn supporters..hopefully dapat jual album ni dan dapat sokongan dari semua..

Please come and support ya guys!

Sabtu,
3pm,Kompleks PKNS,
Shah Alam,

Bangkok Jazz Part 01

2009-05-18T12:50:00.001+08:00

HI HI HI
Ok all my life i selalu tgk my parents perform and growing up mcm tu byk give me exposure yg i sendiri tatau apa benifit atau influence yg i dpt serap dalam minda i ni.
And actually rasanya tak pernah occur to me dat one day i akan menyanyi juga.Because my parents tak galakkan langsung seni seni ni..especially my mum la my father tu sgt attach with me yg klu i minta gunung pun dia g cari agaknya....( heeee..)
But apa2 pun i always know my parents ni agak different from mak bapak org len..dari umur below 1 tahun sampailah 6 years old i rasa cam biasa jer but when masuk sekolah,i dpt hidu lah that nape ini camni kenapa itu cmtu so i can tell.. ouh my family is different..different yg kdg2 tak masuk akal melihat gelagat 'masyarakat' yg melayan aku jugak different..example sekolah-cikgu-aku
mesti ada jer cikgu yg tak puas ati dgn kehadiran i kat sekolah membawa 'branding' anak penyanyi dalam sekolah' dia.
But yer lah innocent nyer myself at that time,rasa cam takpelah...cuz i selalu pindah sekolah so rasanya dh terbiasa.
Sedifferent differentnyer me and the rest pun.. my parents ni konsovertif giler,so biarpun cam rugged tapi mak aih.. itu cannot ini cannot.. jgn mimpi la nk bebas lepas atau even berfikiran a bit cam mat saleh .. pantang my mum tu.. dia tu sgt mementingkan 'roots n regulations'
So dh sah2 menyanyi masuk pertandingan karaoke nk pakai seksi2 tu cannot! haha
Bukan nk puji diri tapi..i tak penah bantah..for me apa yg they say means everything to me...
adik pompuan( skrg umo 16) pun tak sekolah lagi time tu..
Patah balik zaman kocik2,i do grow up dalam hotel,and knowing a lot about clubs and pubs.
Tapi Alhamdulillah pandai mak bapak i ngajar( kata org) i dunt smoke or drink.. tak penah try pun..cuz...bosannnn...dari kceik sampai besar itu jer.. dh la haram tak cool pulak tu..
so syok la bila i can grow up into a healthy teenager.( errrr yer lah kot hehehehehehe)

Alicia Keys,Ahmad Izham,Too Phat..Zaman Positive Tone budak2 sekolah.. yg pernah i lalui dulu is when i realize..i really am into music jugak..its just masa tu.. channel cmne i wanna do ni? all i can think of is doing studio works..producing..
produce? apa maksud produce.. bila i beli majalah kegemaran guey masa tu which is "GALAXIE" yes! u can still find it until today..
i selalu belek2 kat lyrics tu..bwh tu akan ada tulis.. 'written by'words by' and lastly.. produce by'
at 13 i rasa tu pencapaian la to actually wants to know how the hell the song can be create.. dalam hati dan kepala otak muder ku itu..i was like.. 'cmne diorang buat nii!! sedapppp besttt cmne nk buat..
and of course i found out this thing factory nyer is STUDIO.. but cmne nk jadi cmtu..??
Alicia is my biggest influence ouh.. i mmg admire her head to toe..no wait.. head to brain..
Because of her i terus rasa i wanna do music....tapi tak pasti menyanyi tu i boleh buat ke tak.. i alwys know i can sing.. but to be an artist?? layak ke/. question mark remains,, but i was convince i can be somewhere sumthing la dlm music industry.

Watching her perform live bila i get older..16-17.. ouhh mmg serious nampak best.. i can feel it burns..tapi i tak penah confident dgn apa yg i can do...bila ada keyakinan.. i just throw it away with doubts..until la AF3 comes ...and then even still i am very very confused on the path yg i telah pilih.. apa nk jadi kdg2 i think.. but.. i keep on holding on cuz.. its PASSION>

Antara angan2 i yg paling besar zaman hingusan is to perform my very own showcase..
wowwww best nyerrr klu dapat buat showcase sendiri.. dulu masa kuar2 af3 dulu.. zahid penah panggil i nyanyi ngan dia duet kat planet hollywood( zahid and frens) and hazami pun penah masa hazami live at planet..uuhhhh walaupun hanya jemputan kecil.. tapi it still rasa cam guey punya showcase...cuz i have been watching abg afdlin nyer showcase,sheila majid,alicia keys,zainal abidin..adoiii best nyerr klu i am actually apart of the show not just a guest.

Sampai satu time ni Maestro ada nk buat showcase ramai2..i ada sumthing on dat day tapi i cud've just go with the showcase..tapi my good friend Kaer..said to me yg i akan ingat sampai bila2..
amylea: bbe..maestro ask me to do this thing,wut do u think?
kaer:amylea,u tak payah la go like this,i rasa your first ever showcase is just u alone!!and i will buy the ticket if i have to.. dont be stupid..( maksud dia cam jgn jeapordise benda lain just for this show)

Yg akhirnya show tu di'bad reviewkan oleh media..
i cuba lari dari label' budak2 af' bukan malu.. tapi zaman dh lepas.. lepas la..lagpun takde outcome yg bagus sgt from me lepas af.. so malu klu i nak menempek tapi tak cukup bagus dan layak utk buat satu showcase..baru je 2 tahun...tak tahu menahu lagi apa nk buat..
ish dayang nurfaizah ok yg perform kat situ selalu.. me?? uishhhh

OIAM..yg give me the confidence..hehehe
BANGKOK JAZZ is going to become a personal history to me..showcase pertama/sulung/solo AMYLEA AZIZAN akan buat!..ahhhhh indahnya..* tapi susah nyaaa
I am very very happy that kata2 kaer itu jadi kenyataan.. after planet dh tutup,Bangkok Jazz,No Black Tie,Alexis,dan lain2 become as famous for showcases..sooo walaupun buakn di planet but i pentingkan that i am doing my own!!! tak kira apa..
I know this is my biggest task so far..i mmg sgt sgt nervous..dia cam konsert mini yg pertama la kan.. so rasa cam takut sgt pun ada but at the same excited..walaupun terkandas pada 'in concert week' tapi i actually gain to have 2 hours mini concert of my own.. bukan 4 mins lagii yeeeahhhh
ermmm tapi satu malaysia takleh tgk.. takpe.. i will try to record it.. and apa lagi YOU TUBE..but to those yg stay dekat atau yg nak tgk live enjoying the moment please dtg!! kedatangan anda sgt2 di alu alukan!>.masuk percumaaaaaaaaaaaaa
ouh ya..how ironic.. i always suka thailand.. and i pun mix thai.. heheheheh alih2 walaupun di KL bangkok jugak!

NAVIGASI AMYLEA
5th and 6th Of June 2009
Bangkok Jazz Thai Bistro,

...Amylea Independent...

2009-05-16T00:37:00.000+08:00

Recently ada org chat dkt www.amylea.com.my..
Nak kan saya beeri penjelasan tentang status yg sy bawak skrg..
Well here we go, i signed with Maestro Talent N Management in 2005,sebelum bermulanya prelude konsert ketika itu,adalah untuk 3years optional one..semua sekali 4 tahun
dan kontrak tu sepatutny aberakhir pada bulan ogos tahun ni,2009.

But tiba2 Maestro pun sperti yg sedia maklum,dh pun menutup kedainya,masa tu i am still in One In A Million lagi..secara tak langsung.. i am not tight up with any management anymore.. except the album Selepas 3( s3) yg ada sangkut paut dgn Astro juga.

Now i am with satu team independent yg di namakan "The Republic" basically now i have two managers working together with me,one is my good friend yg pernah juga manage me dulu,James Wong.. and one is Redha Fahmy.,who is well known in the industry and also ex manager pada Liza Hanim.

So we are working now as a team,and work hard to make Amylea a better artist in the industry.
Setakat ini.. i am happy juga.. cuma a bit stress. baru jer 2 minggu keluar dari OIAM so many things to do and so little time.. jadi sebab tu lah i mmg need sgt2 support sebaik mungkin dari all my supporters...

especially the Bangkok Jazz showcase..( that one i will write again)

Skrg ni konsep yg i want to bring is Amylea and band,actually sebelum ni pun dh lama cita2 nak buat cmtu tapi tak kesampaian.. harapny athis time around akan menjadi.. dgn kawan2 baru yg sgt2 berbakat.. hopefully my dream will come true. AMINN

AKU DAN MIMPI THE MAKING OF

2009-05-13T13:34:00.001+08:00

Aku Dan Mimpi.. before this bukanlah tajuk tu.. and lyrics dia pun x abes.. tapi after discussing utk jadi one of theme song utk merah puteh.. we completed the song..

mulanya lagu ni terus menerus sedih saja.. tapi bila isma masuk dia suruh i bahagi kan lagu ni kepada dua,so it becomes more like a story telling.
demo lagu ni mmg i bagi kat isma,masa ni mmg tak wujud perancangan 'merah puteh' liriknya pun berbeza jugak dari yg the finishing product.after akan tiba,isma dapat duduk di kerusi pengarah utk satu drama called merah puteh, tinggi effort isma utk this particular drama.. he wants original tracks in this drama mmg best la kan..
choosing song from aizat,as the montaj song pun fun,g umah dia listen to new songs.. trust me aizat got really cool stuffs coming out sedap giler lagu2 lain tu dalam simpanan dia.and lagu yg dipilih isma from ash( BAU) also a good song.Anggun' as it is called now,and isma worked on these 3 songs very closely dan detail and so complete the three ost's "Kau dan Aku",Aku Dan Mimpi" and "Anggun".

actually masa isma nak one song from me i tak terfikir of the sad song that i wrote in april until he says so. dia ckp hes been listening to that rough demo and dapat rasa its going to work for his 1st drama.
So i worked it on slowly with his creative thinking.

thus,

Tidak ku menduga
Ini saat yang ku tunggu,kamu
Yang selama ini,Kau hadir dalam mimpi ku
Hilangkan sunyi..

Berdiri aku tak lagi jauh
Mengapa deras degupan jantungku

Mungkinkah aku
mencintaimu,sepenuh hatiku
Ku harapkanmu
menyayangiku seperti aku teman hidupmu..oooohh

Semakin hampir waktu untuk daku bertemumu
semakin aku rindu yg aku simpan selalu
semakin dekat aku,sedarku dari lamunan
hanya aku dan mimpi
cinta tak pernah ada..

berdiri kaku dan lebih jauh
terhenti nafas dan degup jantungku

Salahkah aku mencintaimu
sepenuh hatiku
katakan sesuatu jgn biar ku keliru dan terus berlalu oooohh

tidak ku menduga
mengapa ini terjadi..

ALLY BELI ALBUM

2009-05-13T01:12:00.001+08:00

haloo
the time now is 1.11am.. baru lepas mandi dan sgt penat fuyoo.. what a day. yer lah bgn kul 530 pagi and then mandi and then make up and then buat rambut for MHI.
Madha.. (manager) kata nk amik at 7am
tapi he came at around 740 kot..hehe we manage to go thru a smooth traffic up until nk masuk damansara.. wow massive jam.. but berjalan la jugak..
Sumthing interesting happen along the way.. ada satu mamat motor ni.. tgh bergaduh dgn pemandu lori.. fuyooo tgh2 jalan ni beb.,i was like what the hell yg dia marah sgt dgn drebar lori tu..cuz dh effect2 maki hamun berbagai dah.. ajak drebar lori tu ke tepi dan turun selesaikan lah,. but bila lalu kat tepi nampak drebar lori tu nyer muka.. perghh cuak dia,.i dunt think he wud stop by and tadah muka.

then jalan sikit lagi.. dh tol..so kat situ sah2 lah kena slow down.,.
GUESS WHAT!
the same lorry is stuck at a lorong.. with the motorcylcist tgh tgg baekk punya kat depan lorry dia..ouh my god.. mamat motor tu kuarkan tali pinggang dia.. berjalan deras.. muka dh tak hingat merah padam.. terus pukul dari cermin tingkap lori tu.. fuyoooo i ckp kat madha..LIVE NI serious best,.,( hahahaha) GILER AHH
tak sangka pagi2 buta.. dpt tgk org hilang kesabaran....

Sampai je tv3, we afraid that well be late.. i just rush in first to sum touch up ke apa.. and madha pegi parking.Nampak ally tgh makan..sambil2 iklan tu sempat jugak dia mamah sumthing.. and he looks so decent and cool.
AnYWAYS<<<
masa i masuk je dalam set.. they were talking to this one old guy.. might be a business man, i didnt get to catch what was the topic but they were promoting what was next.. which is me..:)
masa iklan tu i ada lah check2 sound sikit.. so cool everything set!
masuk balik iklan there was a promo for Dettol.. so pas ni i lah orgnya yg kena nyanyi..
after i sang. they interviewed me and give me lot of positive things la.. i rasa bertuah jap kat situ.. cuz they actually mmg hargai what i am doing.. di mana2 or di dalam industri ni.. bagi org cam baru nk menapak like me.. recognition satu benda yg sgt berharga.. cant describe with words.

....selesai nya itu,.i went on singing Aku dan Mimpi..
one of the camera person really like the song. which i rasa best la kan.. he wanted to but the album klu ada lagu tu.. but it wasnt so dia tak jadi beli.. urmmm :( xpelah..
Masa tu jugak AG (hot fm) ask me how much is it for one album... then i say..rm20 if buy directly from my hand.,
So ally got interested and he wants to buy it.. i cam terharu nyer..
Kuar je minta sum change dgn madha.. terus gerak.. perut pulak lapar.. madha ajak makan kat tempat lain.. tapi hati tu nk jugak makan kat kafeteria TV3..

Biasanya what i use to get mmg sedap.,,, i amik benda yg sama jugak tadi.. but then.. tak rasa pun..mybe dh sebu
REMAJA RECORDING
Then gerak ke rumah madha skejap.. nine call...
dia tanya where i am, buat apa..so i jawab la nk g glenmarie sbb ada shoot utk rancangan remaja.. n so on,.. pastuh dia ckp i pun sama ..
seronok la knowing that ada kawan kat sana,,,
actually my call time is at 4,dia pulak 1pm.. so cam different episode tapi cuz he's there i just wanna go early so we can have time to chat

time goes by and goes and goes,,,

so kami pun dh selesai record.. remaja ni ada open mic session jam.. so i nyer lambat lagi but nine.. malam ni jugak.. so apa lagi.. COCO perform..

makan nyer makan.. sembang punya sembang.. Ag and the coco pun dh sampai di Glenamarie.. so kami pun bergegas back to the studio,Ntv7,
Sambil set up set up.. sound check.. i had good conversations and chatss..it seems so nice to have a lot of talented people around u, keeps u motivated and wants to work harder..cuz u just wanna be like them also..

Seronok dgr lagu2 baru nine.. i dh dgr sebelum ni both of it,..but with new arrangements and full band.. rasa cam best giler,, especially lagu JANGAN DATANG..guys u really have to be ready to catch this tune..its good u just cannot miss it..COCO will record the songs soon so.. biler dh ada kat radio nnt.. keep on supporting.. and keep supporting me jugak hhee
actually i text rizu-fify,pija-han to come.. yerlah.. i really want to realize the motive that we selalu support satu sama lain.

Its such a long day.. makan lepak kat satu kedai mamak high class gitu kat area studio AG yg i know akan menjadi sejarah pada ramai newcomers yg akan record di situ tak lama lg..

Tadi masa talk with 'remaja' topiknyer ialah ' remaja dan dunia glamour'
u see to me glamour not just being an artist atau celebrity di dalm industri muzik org lakonan..
but u can be glamour di mana2 bidang pon..its a good positive thing.. byk benda baik dtg dari glamour.. cuma kita kena hargai bila tak hargai itu yg jadi tak tentu arah.
back to what i want to say is.. find people to hang with yg boleh bagi input dalam kehidupan bukan ckp2 kosong atau just lepak yg abesnya time lepak tu dah takde makna..
find whatever reason that can makes u a better person than yesterday...dunt see things in positive or negative but turn everything into positive. CHOOSE WISELY

GLAM YOURSELF!

Birthday Fai-fai( FIFY)

2009-05-09T15:03:00.002+08:00

Birthday faifai ari tu tapi ari ni baru dia buat ala2 party kat umah dia di klang.
dapat message semalam,pening gak sbb takde transport nk ke sana.. Ari ni kelam kabut msg sumer org..
Esther masih di kl,tapi dia tak sure dapat pegi ke tak,pija dgn han takde transport.. adoiii
then 9 pulak di Johor ada wedding kat sana.. simon masih di penang ujung bulang baru pindah terus ke kl.

So call la rizu..dia ada area kl ni..so dia jap gi dtg amik i dan g umah fify.. aweera kata boleh dtg..so cant wait to see him jugak..
Tgh tunggu rizu ni.. bosan.. tatau nk watpe..
Anyway..
nk promosi AKu dan Mimpi.. coming soon

HAPPY BIRTHDAY FIFY!

Semoga Panjang Umur Murah Rezeki~

..demi sejenis cuaca......

2009-04-28T00:12:00.000+08:00

Likei said at my website.. sabtu is a very busy day.. pukul 6 pagi dh bgn.. nk bertolak ke Lumut perak( TLDM) for tapak pesta "jom Heboh"

i have to be there for Gua.com.my booth dan juga Invitasi dari Harian Metro.. rasa happy sgt sebab ada yg sudi pelawa utk memeriahkan booth diorang.

Sampai sana dalam pukul 1130 pagi cmtu.. just siap2 sikit dalam kereta..huihs penat dan ngantuks gilerrr!

tapi bila dah sampai rasa segar sbb ramai org..

Sampai je kat booth tu.. ada fazreen pelakon dari drama popular Spa Q 1/2( yg jadi dafi tu)

dia pun masa tu bersemangat jer.. i pun nyanyi lah lagu akan tiba pastu give away 5 exclusive poster for fans yg jawab soalan2 huhu

That was the 1st sessionhad fun jugakla..then after that me n james pegi lunch,.,alih2 mc D jugak.. sbb terlalu panas dan nk cari ari cond lerrr hehhehe

and ingat kn wifikan diri so that can post where i am masa tu.. but found out james lupa nk charge laptop!// errmm takpelah..

Lepas makan tu tgh borak2 psl masa depan.. ada few gurls came up to me and nk amik gambar tapi tanak kat situ.. so takpelah i ikut diorang pegi.. rupanya there's one space ni dalam satu bilik kat situ yg diorang reserve utk satu party perpisahan for their teacher.. i rasa tu satu ke dua kelas sekaligus,.,

Mmg meriah sungguh sesi fotografi di Mcd!..

cikgu pon sporting.. tak sangka..hehe:)

then we head back to tapak jom heboh.. dah parking kami sempat tido sekejap.. sbb terlalu penat...

tepat pukul 3 masuk balik ke booth gua for the 2nd perfomance,"aku dan mimpi"

sempat promosi aku dan mimpi dan merah puteh.

Terus gerak ke booth harian metro disambut mesra oleh rudy dan crew2 harian metro.. masa tu ada lena..artis residen diorang yg juga sama2 top 80 oiam3 tak lama dulu

lepak2 juga la for almost 1 an half hour sementara menunggu artis2 lain,aizat,zila af4,along cham,and wana mystarz LG.

Then i was the 1st to perform..abes je perform said our appreciation to Rudy and gerak balik. rudy tak putus2 ckp terima kasih.. but i rasa i lebih berterima kasih sbb djemput sama2 terlibat.

THANK YOU HARIAN METRO AND GUA.COM.MY

actually hujan ada masa tu...janji nk lepak dgn jaja la.. line pulak sgt la terukk tak dpt nk msg

gon the spot. kejap boleh kejap tak boleh.. ishhh..

so abes je kat booth metro kitaorang gerak ke keta...tgg msg jaja tak masuk2..

elok dh separuh jalan keluar dari situ baru dapt msg dia...bgtahu kat mana diorang,.,but actually dekat je pon dgn booth metro tadi.. ermm jaja pun ada pegi cari kat sana but then i already left!

Ingat tu nk patah balik la cuz best gak dpt lepak sembang2 or what not kan..but nktak balik kita nnt. keluar dari situ pun sgt la susah.. nak masuk lagi?? alamatnya tak balik nnt kita..

Tiba2 kitaorang tersilap jalan! masuk jalan lama pulak.. ermm panjang sunyi and boringggg

....malam itu

dalam pukul 830 cmtu.. we stop at a near warong.. tepi jalan..lapar giler satu sebab.. and nk tgk hujan perform..

sampai2.. mmg tv dh tv9 oklah.. takyah minta remote hehehe

makanan agak lambat sampai..

Time 840 cmtu tuan punya warong bukak bola...

(alahhhhh) tapi dia buat tatau jerr... mmg bersemangat dia nk tgk bola...Rupanya final selangor lawan kelantan..erghhh

msg jaja.. katanya diorang 2nd performer.. tolak tambah dalam pukul 915 must be hujan's turn la..

so bila dh nk dekat.. byrbil minta kat akan tu ( bini tuan kedai rasanya) 'akak.. saya nk minta tlg boleh?? jap lagi kawan saya nyanyi la kat tv9 boleh ke saya nk tgk sekejap dioang nyanyi no 2" ( beriyaaaa nyerr)

akak tu ckp boleh terus amik remote dan bagi kat guey!

oklah selamat....( lega dalam hati..

then bila tekan..fabulous cats tgh buat opening ramai2.. ouh ni bukan ni..

bukak bola balik.. tak sedar satu meja pemuda2 kampung cam kecewa dgn perubahan rancangan oleh diriku ini

then i call my mum.. 'ma bila diorang dh announce hujan please call bgtau sbb nk tgk diorang..

diorang perform 2nd!,. in my mind i thought fabulous cats was the 1st performer..
so my mum said dh abes,,.skrg tgh iklan,.. so bila dia ckp iklan dh stop i thought mesti pasni hujan!
tup* tekan tv9 balik.. then tgk2 ramli sarip haiyaaakkk bukan.. alamakkk
then tgk kejap terus bukak balik bola.. terus dgr org mengeluh kat belakang.. ( aaahhh)
terus i tgk belakang ouh meja pemuda2 tadi.. diorang nk tgk tv9 tapi memandangkan tuan kedai tu cam tak happy.. i just biarkan je tv1 masa tu.. then i rasa mybe ramli sarip nyanyi sebuah lagu je kot..
call my mum 'please tell me bila ramli sarip dh abes nyanyi.. so bila dia cakap dah abes.. i pun cam bukak la arghhh salah lagi dia nyanyi dua lagu pulak.. darnn it!!!

So bila turn bola bali.. mengeluh lagi belakang tuu..adoiii.. i pun terus tanya nk tgk ke tadi tu?
then diorang ckp2 takpe2.. alahaiii
then kali ni just bukak je la mana tau pasn terus hujan,.,.tunggu.... then link to host..tunggu lagi
then org lain nyanyi arghhh.. lamanya jaja kata 2nd performer ni dh lebih setengah jam takde pon!.
tiba2 iklan pulakkk! rasa nya the longest iklan ever!
So adalah hujan akhirnya,tapi dh mulai rasa tak selesa muka pakcik kedai tu mmg dh tak syok arghhh rasa bersalah sgt api apakan daya ni dh start..
nyamuk pula dh kenyang satu keluarga sbb gigit i and james.
sambil tergaru garu dapat tgk 2 perfomance..except aku skandal..masa tu terus bagi balik remote.. erghhhterkilan tapi takpe 2 lagu ok la tak dpt enjoy sgt pon.sbb rasa bersalah.
masuk kereta dh undur2 tu ter 'knock out' motor jatuh hehehe.. motor tu p on parking baik jer belakang kereta.. tapi oklah takde apa2 kecederaan di motor tu.. then head home laaa..

Moral cite ni ialah.. sebenarnya diorang ni pun hargai i jugak dan tak jemu2 bagi support,they will catch my show bila berpeluang so i will do the same for them tambah2 they carry a good brand and good music.. very inspiring..

DONT FORGET TO WATCH AIM kerana HUJAN akan memberikan persembahan yg i kira sgt AWESOME.. MEET UNCLE HUSSEIN juga akan memberikan persembahan yg awesome..

""" Music RAwkS!"""""

GET UP AND GO!

2009-04-23T18:18:00.001+08:00

Ari isnin ari tu.. after GUA and FLY me and manager,James decided kitaorang nk antar cd ke Suria FM,kebetulan jumpa Kak Julia( ex-x fresh fm)
and she wants to do an interview.. which held today lah..

then keesokannya i got a call from Tengku Suzana( Kosmo!) to do and interview and photoshoot.. so it wud be my 1st photoshoot selepas tersingkir..:) pun di selesaikan juga ari ni..
Esok jumaat,
i will be attending a fashion show By Passion Magazine and appear as Muse' untuk Amir Luqman's runaway show.( pendek2 pun boleh guna utk catwalk hahaha!

Saturday,will be heading to Lumut,TLDM, for karnival Jom Heboh,appearing at Gua.com.my booth and also Harian Metro's booth..
so hopefully dapat jumpa supporters and everybody la kat sana...

JAM WITH HUJAN

Yesterday,i jadi bingung sbb satu ari termenung je.. biasa dah ari2 ada aktiviti so bila takde jadi bodoh..so my close friend Jaja from Hujan..he asked me if i want to join them later at nite for rehearsal,Meet Uncle Hussein pun ada,,they're doing a collaboration for AIM.
Its AWESOME! serious best giler..sempat lah record pakai recorder.. bila dgr mmg satu performance yg di nanti nantikan.
after MUH balik.. Hujan masih ada rehearsal yer lah diorang pun perform this saturday.. for konsert tv9..so Noh ajak jam lagu " aku skandal' cool.. mengubat luka.. sbb having fun..

Paling best sambil2 diorang kena kuar g amik gambar and interview.. i dpt lah main guitar Ag yeah yeah.. pastuh ag bagi pick guitar( 'ag coco') actually i've been wanting that dh lama cuma segan la nk mintak.. unless di beri tol x..

Thank you jaja and Hujan for having me for the jamming session

..salahkah kecewa?

2009-04-23T17:49:00.001+08:00

...Seminggu dh berlalu,luka kat hati pun dh makin baik,menerima ketentuan tuhan bukan mudah bagi org mcm i sendiri, tapi Alhamdulillah setakat ini..i am fine.
Makan tak lalu,mandi tak basah,tidur tak lena,,bila buka mata terbayang bayang diri kat atas pentas.. aduhh pelik betul rasa.. lebih dari org putus cinta.

Actually today i want to share a thought with everybody,1st of all thank you kepada semua yg tak henti2 beri kata2 semangat dan dorongan tak terhingga..it makes me feel so much better.,terima kasih yer semua.
But along came the support down came the critics..berbisa bukan biasa...
Yes, betul m an artist.yes i just had an album.. yg baru keluar lebih kurang 3 bulan lepas..yg dibuat sendiri segalanya ke hulu ke hilir.. buat itu buat ini.. nk dptkan kepercayaan org.. if only people know how i go thru setiap ari..
yes i have been singing for the past 3 years.. yes ini adalah kehidupan yg i lalui..

Artist? artis ke? thought to my self.. just because people know u tak semestinya u hebat dan dasyat,tak semestinya kehidupan penuh dgn kemewahan dan kebahagiaan...

Setiap manusia,sesiapa sahaja punyai matlamat hidup,cita2 angan2 semuanya.. dan yg bekerja keras pasti akan mendapat habuannya,mungkin sekelip mata mungkin amik masa yg lama.
Sama juga seperti saya sendiri,sedar ketidaksempurnaan'pakej' yg sering disebut sebut kan..
mmg selalu membuatkan saya malu,kurang keyakinan dan terus lemah apatah lagi asyik di keji selalu..
But i am thankful to ALLAH who create me as i am.. dan Dia jugalah memberi pinjaman2 berbentuk bakat ini pada saya yg tak seberapa..dan bila saya rasa kelebihan diri,sy hanya mampu memuji penciptaNYA bukan berbangga diri.. jauhh sekali.
I am so sorry if before i everr offended anybody..i am no angel.. and what u see is what u get.. ikhlas diri mcm ni lah Amylea.
I am not a snob,.please know me before judging me,..i cannot change my face to be funny or loveable but i work hard to make my dream come true..surely appreciating setiap yg selalu mendoakan.
So i ask myself.. .. Salahkah aku rasa kecewa.. tak sama kah aku dgn org lain.. kecewa klu tak dpt beli brg.. kecewa tak boleh balik raya,.kecewa tak boleh beli kereta..
and to me.. kecewa kerana tidak berjaya,..
salahkah perasaan ni dirasai oleh Amylea.apa kurang atau lebihnya saya sendiri kerana tak dibenarkan merasa apa yg saya rasa.
And of course my goal here in this blog.. is like a diary to myself.. bezanya dpt di baca oleh org yg mahu mengetahui mungkin mudah memahami siapa amylea lebih dekat.

Bila dh terjatuh begini.. bagai disepak dan diludah lagi..( apa lagi mesti akan dikata..'ya itu lumrah kan?)

At an emotional breakdown seperti ini.. badan yg kalis jadi lembik dan telus.
There;s nothing i can write here can stop the judging./.

this is a share of feelings.. yet again...

from my eyes2

2009-04-19T18:19:00.005+08:00

zeb- our senior producer pun masuk and they were talking about it..( arghhhh) enough...kenapa aku tak leh kawal emosi masa ni..cmne nk berdepan dalam pc kllu asyik muka cam taik je..
then kali kedua diorang panggil ke pc i pun bergegas ke bilik sebelah...
masuk jer.. semua press dah tunggu.. i sorang jer 1st masuk.. bagus la dalam hati.. boleh jer terus ckp dgn diorang tanpa yg lain..
i malas nk duduk depan so just sit dekat temapt duduk diorang dekat sikit..
the media has helped me a lot..dan i am very grateful tentang tu.. tak pernah lagi la rasa cmni./.so rasa sgt di hargai oleh press.
lagipun top 12 oiam semuanya begitu berpotensi..i tak risau psl yg lain,, pasti diorang akan 'make it' if they want it.

HILANG

abes jer PC. bergegas guey ke bilik wardrobe nk amik beg,terlihat ramai dalam tu.. seolah olah tergamam dan mahu ckp sesuatu .. i terus amik beg dan jalan.................( how selfish)
turun tangga, dan terus nampak our productrion team kat situ...sekali lagi burst into tears.. they all console me dan memujuk tanpa henti... kata2 dari producer oiam kiedd and zeb masuk staright to the brain..kali ini pujukan yg masuk ke otak.. baru boleh menerima sikit.
tapi dalam hati i have to go,, i dont want to see them
called my mum dan terus balik dgn parents..
terus ke hotel..masuk bilik,keluarkan semua beg dan baju2 terus pack.. esther yg tergamam tanya kenapa??
i ckp,,i nak balik...." malam ni jugak ka? eyhhhhh jgnla cmtu boy.. please tunggu la dulu..semua pun yg keluar mesti stay few days bah kan?esok we have to go the roadshow.

then i said, i dh ckp dgn kiedd i am going back tonite dan akan pergi sendiri for gua.com
and ckp kat dia that i tak pegi untuk berjaya times square tu sbb i need to go to nilai....

terus esther menangis....rayu dia jgn pulang lagi..

i terus pack..jantung ni cam nk pecah dah tahan sedih tgk esther dan tgk bilik yg i duduk for the past 5 months.. gambar2 kat dinding..katil tu,baju2 semua..oauhhhhh tuhannn
i ckp esther i nk cepat..
dalam lift i peluk esther kuat2 i ckp kat esther kenapa i buat semua ni.. and she understands.. reason tu tak dapat nk nyatakan kat sini biarlah i sendiri simpan..

OIAM was.. MY FUTURE

tak sangka keputusan masuk oiam dh change me a lot,dari segi music..

I LOVE AND CHERISH YOU:

OIAM SEASON 3 PRODUCTION TEAM

Terima kasih yg paling tinggi pada prodcution team yg paling best di dunia,Kiedd,Zeb,David,Sunil,Anusha,Kana,

the people that makes us look good!

jason,joyce,kiwi,nicole,shelby,gaffer,adam,andrew,batu,howie chin,

The Excellent Mentors

Juita Jalil, Aubrey Suwito and the band2,Pat Ibrahim..Yuaz,Ning Baizura,Peter Lum and Kalai,

Right now, i am resting and tgh amik ketenangan, masih lagi meratap( wahh)
still in shock,but coping insyALLAH, please pray that i will be better..i am trying my best to bangun balik,, tq to everybody who text me, i appreciate and listen to what u all have to say about it,.. appreciate the motivation and support..
p/s malam tu tertinggal fon dia shah alam nasib baik ada org bagi balik tapi semua msg terdelete yg masuk malam tu some i tak sempat baca i am teribly sorry.

"when u r ready get up and make music again ok? amik sikit dari apa yg aubrey msg me,
YES aubrey i will take some moment to settle down.. tapi i will be back

I WILL BE BACK

from my eyes 1

2009-04-18T13:33:00.003+08:00

salam.
what a nite semalam was. sungguh terkilan cuz i betul2 nk perform semalam,dgn minggu yg terasa begitu panjang,from the beginning of sunday i feel so excited tapi ada yg tak kena,
practice with the band terus rakam kat recorder yg pinjam ngan otam( a friend yg co wrote 'satu dalam sejuta') asyik dgr berkali kali pasal syok sgt dgn muzik yg telah di buat,i got it right from the 1st practice lagi tak pernah rasa mcm ni.
Kalau biasanya dgr2 sekejap kemudian dh mula buat benda lain.. cuz mmg i ni cam cepat bosan klu dgr lagu sama lama2
tapi this time entah la kali ni asyik dgr berkali kali klu ada masa sikit.. tanyalah diorang.
i cant wait to perform ,i told my self.its like listening to your straight a's spm result.. hahha( walaupun)

setiap ari berlalu....minggu ni mmg pelik...sgt pelik,call time yg tak menentu asyik tukar sana tukar sini tak pernanh mcm ni...
kelas kat celebrity fitness pun tiba2 kena buat sendiri,takde limit.. cam ada instructor tapi lebih bebas nk buat pape...
then masuk kelas 'capoeira'
semua cam tak best langsung,satu kelas yg kami tak enjoy....kah kah kah
lepas biasanya makan nasi kat food court tu.. makan koew teow tomyam pulak haihhh
biasanya i do a rutin sepanjang 4 1/2 bulan mmg itu je yg dibuat....

then farewell dinner simon yg hanya setengah jam.. AND i LUPA AMIK GAMBAR *%^&^$
i salu bwk kamera and take a lot of memorable picture...seolah olah lupa mcm2!!
kak ju dtg bwk kek aiskrim tapi pastu dpt call dari 8tv utk appear dgn hunny madu.. semua bergegas...
sedihhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh

pastu biasanya ada minus one kali ni takde.. so bila masuk kelas tak pdt practice apa2 cuma diskusi saja...kurang menarik.. tapi byk input..salu tgk dvd ramai2
janji nk tgk 'benjamin buttons' pastuh tak jadi/.. haihhhhh satu lagi rutin tak menjadi..

-beli shampoo baru,beli sliper baru..cam nk abeskan duit elaun makan kitaorang tu...hehehe
cuci sweater dan baju2 yg lama tak di pakai di korek kembali utk di kemas.. cam tau2 jer nk blah..

lagu 'camni-lah' yg practice beriya. kami berlima tiba tukar pulak..patutnya kami nyanyi first part pastu baru shila ngan dafi tukar pulak diorang dulu baru kami.. kelam kabut kitaorang pening nk hafal lirik yg lain pulak.. haihhh

oohh.... camni lah camnilah...sedih giler dgr dari bilik wardrobe kat atas,....

THE LAST PERFOMANCE

tuhan saja tau mcm mana rasaya masa di umumkan keluar..satu film lama played so rapid fast until your head spins...felt like fainted..lutut lemah dan hampir jatuh. numb seluruh badan tak dpt pilik.. dgr marion berckp sesuatu berkali.kali..-are u ok itu je yg ingat tapi tak dpt dgr for sure.cnt think or say antyhing..awal ckp apa pun aku tak fhm dah.. cam dia cakapa bahasa brazil jer..

all in my head aku kena perform ni.. 'lagu i'm yours kan? thats what i say..wuts the 1st lyrics.. ouh ya..i wont hesitate..
( bagus la aku tak lupa lirik) ' mana mic..ouh aku kena amik kat kana( our floor manager)
'kenapa aku cam melayang layang ni..ok mungkin ni bukan real.. aku mimpi ni.. tapi kena nyanyi..

masa nyanyi pun masih berfikir lagi.. betul ke ni amylea.. betul ke ni amylea.. maknanya mcm mana dgn lagu konsert malam ni... kau tak nyanyi ke amylea.. baju yg kau amik dari designer ni kau just pakai utk i ni je ke..??
masa tu la yg hati tersebak terus lari pitching &%%*$%#$# (- arghh lari pitching- sempat lagi tu..) ok2 control...nnt tgk balik kat site malu klu tak sedap...giler la kau pikir sampai camtu nyer jauh masa perfom last.. then i see my cousins pegang banner berdiri kat situ dgn kwn2 dia.. to support me malam ni becuz i asked them to.. ada interaction with the audience so i need them to be there.. and i can see my parents out from a far.. sambil tu i sempat jeling ke belakang tgk aubrey.abg nan..cikgu yuaz and teh rest of teh gang.. dalam hati.. AKU NK PERFORM ARRANGEMENTS TU MALAM NI!~i'm sorry.. they really looking forward to paly my music smlm...cuz my music cam jenis relax2 and fun so they enjoy that kind of music..

i alwys think...if i go out mcm mana lah rasanya.. but never thought it wud be this hard..
if i went last week.. mybe i wont feel this way.. concert ni la yg i nanti2 kan to show how i want to perform begitu dgn research but sayanggggg// haihhhh

turun stage.,.biasanya akan shake hand dgn aubrey..jatuh la air mata pertama in front of him tak patut camtu but i really got nothing to hide..he's a friend yg byk2 giler membantu i dalam competition ni..he looked at me and i cry like a river..bukan apa..psl tak dpt perform itu je.. kalah>? tiada siapa yg pernah kalah disini, atau lebih tepat.. mmg dh tau2 dah tak menang hahha

i said to aubrey sambil meraung...sakitnya tak tau kt mana.,.
"aubrey.. all i want is to perform tonite.. i worked so damn hard...i just want to perform the arrangements//""

awal kemarin.. production dh minta 2 lagu yg ingin perform di finals..i m the only person yg masih meragu.. rasa cam tak kena and then i cant decide what song.. selama ni yg berangan angan nk bwk lagu tu la nk bwk lagu ni lah.. nk pakai baju tu la ni lah.. semua dh kabur.. lenyap terus.. terus i say to my self

' kenapa dgn aku ni .. tak tau nk bwk lagu apa..

then we sit and bincang semuanya tak kena di hati den ni ha.. terus ckp dgn nine ... tgk muka dia...( masa tu dh petang)
nine tanya ' apsal u..kenapa
i said.. nine.. kenapa ni.. i cam rasa tak best sgt2...i rasa ..
.' u ok'.. arrangements u lain mesti ok punya,.. i ni yg tak tentu akan perform ke tak..

..............................................

buat vocal exercise pun cam hampeh... sbb tak cukup time.. semuanya nk skip tu skip ni.. then for the 1st time.. i ckp..i takleh buat vocal exercise ni lama2.. i dh nk pitam.. cuz too nervous.. i stopped..AMYLEA STOPPED THE EXERCISE!~
wow... haihhhh

.................takde bacaan doa2 ramai./. semua sendiri saja..lain lagi..

WITHOUT SAYING GOOD BYE

Lepas jumpa aubrey.. mata terus tak nampak..
jalan pace yg agak laju.. melulu naik naik ke atas..kiri pandang pun tak.. kanan pun tak nampak but i realize ppl calling my name berhenti sekejap tapi terus melangkah naik tangga..kecewa sampai tak dpt berfikir.
kamera ikut straight

i sat down,..cuba hayati apa sebenarnya rasa nya masatu.. and tak ingat apa i ckp kat kamera,...then i said before i look stupid.. baik aku blah.. i went into the changing room and cry again..tapi cam tak berair mata.. sebaknya tuhan jer yg tahu...sakit,..cam putus cinta pun ada jugak.. tak pernah aku rasa begitu passionate nyer aku nk naik stage.. then i sedar.. damn.. amylea u really love the stage dont you??
YES i answer myself.. terdengar masa tu. lagu coca cola my part mmg esther yg akan amik..
terduduk dalam bilik kecik tu.. terasa cam di pisah laut jer dgn diorang.. malu bukan kepalang.. rasa bersalah dgn semua org yg dtg semata mata utk i perform..
rasa cam kena bunuh..
then dgr nine perform.. ( kamera gurl kitaorang masa tu tak putus ketuk2 pintu) tapi gua bo layan.. layan perasaan ah kononyer.. nih..
sekali lagi rasa cam di sepak..
aku yg patut perform dulu.. then baru nine//
skrg nine yg nyanyi dulu.. " eh.. betul la aku dh kena kick out.. terus teringat guitar kat bwh dan props carpet yg aku request dgn production ahad lepas.. AMYLEA>>>>>> aku jerit nama sendiri( tapi dlm hati) rasa cam give up.. 5 bulan hard work baru masa tu terasa penat..

then i heard suara org yg i kenal...pija..
terus bukak jer pintu tu.. peluk dia pegang tgn dia.. pija... tolong aku kenapa aku rasa camn9i??aku respect semua org yg keluar dgn senyuman tapi aku keluar cam sore looser..
aku tak leh tahan perasaan kecewa aku.. aku bukan malu sbb kalah.. aku kempunan nk perform lagu2 yg aku dh buat ...tolong aku pija;

pija yg tenangkan i dalam bilik tu..then amir luqman and james dtg.. 2 sahabat baik i
pujuk2 dan pujuk dan pujuk lagi

then ada certain time masa tu pija keluar kejap...
actually i feel lost..

Oh no..kalau i tgk muka semua org lagi lah i takleh tahan sebak.. bapak emotional aku ni.. but then i learn to accpet it.. i ni mmg mudah tersentuh.. and emotional.. thats whay i can write songs.. cuz i i can go into deeper meaning.. that reaches through your soul..

larike bwh.. amik semua brg dan terus pack.. tgg di bilik mekap sampai lah press conference starts..............

to be continued

top 6

2009-04-07T13:03:00.000+08:00

wow.. dh sampai ke top 6,mmg menakutkan,
tak sangka masa berlalu begitu pantas,so fastttt..
so long havent updating my blog, i think i wanted to say is,
i appreciate all the support that people are giving me,and hope that this coming friday (sheila majid's week) i will rawk the stage!
AMIN

BATU PAHAT

2009-03-09T09:20:00.002+08:00

lepas jer konsert malam jumaat lepas,
kitaorang sampai hotel dalam pukul 2++ pagi..semuanya keletihan.. but we all had to pack our things for the next day trip.

call time is at 7am. phewww.. tido dalam 3 hours only,tapi semangat nih nk ke batu pahat beramai ramai.
this is our 2nd roadtour.1st 2 minggu lepas di shah alam( the same place we do our live shows.

so this are sum few pictures from batu pahat.

TENTANG AYU

2009-03-03T22:57:00.001+08:00

Ayu is a very nice and sweet person..
she's very warm and fun! suker giler biler dia ada,its like she brings rainbow whenever she goes,
Its a difficult thing not to like her.

2 BULAN TOGETHER...

Woah,,, berendam air mata semalam (2nd of march)
ayu tgh pack2 brg sbb nk balik umah dah.. rasa cam takleh terima pun ada jugak she needs more chance. tapi rezeki tak sebelahi dia.

asyik amik video dia jer smlm sambil nangis2...i ni mmg jenis tak show kasih sayang dari cam perkataan ke apa ke cam peluk2 ke dgn kwn2 sbb tak reti tapi dalam ni cam nk pecah dah.. tapi keep cool la kononnya tapi smlm tu cam hujannnnnnn ributtt taufaannn tapi just depan ayu je,yg len tak nampak haha

tidur satu queen size nyer katil sama2 selama 2 bulan rasa rapat sgt dgn adik aku sorang ni..kelakar dier ni sama jer cam rizu.

ayu ni suker bangun awal giler.. she'll be the 1st to get up which is like 2 1/2 hours before call time and get ready by herself. her excuse is .. malas nk berebut,, hehehe comel

AYAM ALARM CLOCK

Been in the scene working nite and day has taught me to appreciate my sleeping hours secara total sampai kira nih berapa jam dapt tido biler boleh nk catch up balik time tu klu tak cukup. so dulu yer lah sanggup bgn awal nk siap best2 tapi skrg i jenis yg cam biarlah masa bersiap terhad asalkan tido cukup.so i have learn to be ready asap.

Biler ALARM CLOCK AYU yg LEGEND tu berbunyi bukan waktu amylea bangun ..
ARGGGGGHHHHHHH tensii
sbb i am very sensitive when i am sleeping bunyi sket pun dh takleh nk sambung
ESPECIALLY phone nyer sound,.
thats why if at home, sebelum masuk tido,fon antar to my mum. so dat she can pick it up if its an urgent call or something.

Tapi dh lama2 biasa dah dgn bunyi AYAM AYU tu... so biler bunyi jer tau dah budak tu nk g mandi.. dh la side katil gua kat tepi toilet enak la di buai lampu toilet dan bunyi shower yg agak2 3 minggu baru abes mandi hahahah
jgn marah ayu.. now i am MISSING THAT!!!!!!

RAJIN

Ayu ni mmg rajin,dari awal check in awal januari,salu kemas2 brg.. tak sempat aku nak pakai brg dh dia masuk dlm beg balik heheheheh..

mula2 i tak berapa nk tidy sgt sbb masih rindukan umah.. i ni kalau nk sesuaikan diri tempat baru lama sikit.. so selagi tak rasa selesa lagi tu lah nk buat semak jer,, cuz reminds me of home.
kesian kat ayu dia sorang je paling rajin.. masuk 2 minggu kat sini gua mula tak tahan.. jadi i pun buat la semua kemas2 sbb dh rasa cam umah sendiri.

we got the prize of- CLEANEST ROOM oleh kak JU yeahhhhh

banyak kenangan yg ada between me, esther ayu dan fify..especially masa sama2 buat musical ari tu dpt best musical lagi dari kak Ju dan Pat.

biler ayu takde ni cam rasa kosong jer.. katil takde org kat sebelah dah bunyi ayam dh takde dah.. pelik sgt.. baru 24 jam rasa cam.. lama tak jumpa..

ayu dtg eh jumaat ni..

assalamualaikum

SEKIAN LAMA

2009-03-03T22:44:00.003+08:00

SORRYYYYYYY

mmg lama tak update blog ni sejak check in katt sini13 january lepas,
sorry sgt cuz i did not have a laptop to use,yg lain ada la kdg2 i pinjam tapi sekejap2 jer just to answer few shout out box comments kat website.
but recently after the 2 nd week 's show my kind friend james wong lend me his personal laptop so dat i can chat and update with people. how cool is that?

anyways, talking about comments and such, my mum told me recently that someone is very upset with my english.. hehehheeh its the funniest thing actually not saying that i'm very2 good but boleh la nk ajar2 sket cewaaahh..
actually when i look back at my blog, the ones that i wrote.. actually baru teringat i wrote it secara nk cepat2 semua2 dan tak check balik tapi i rasa its just a few here and there mistakes,m not guna write an establish novel katanya hehehe
but this is just a shout out from my heart, a diary so i dunt think those wud create a big fuss.,
tapi takpelah i repaired a few damages here and there.. takpelah..

eyh anyway enough said..
wow last week was a blast...

BOTTOM THREEEEEEE

haiyaaa sedih woo masa tu.. i rasa nk tercabut semua plug2 kat dlm badan..
i think i was not breathing the entire moment.. kak ju kat depan( juita jalil- our mentor)
was asking me to show a good face lah.. suruh i smile, i keep geleng2 kepala tanda nk pengsan dh ni kak juuuu...
i really dont want to leave.....i have sooo much to give..YA RABBI,,'

Walaupun bersyukur pada tuhan yg saya masih diberi peluang,but loosing Ayu is so hard to cope.
Ayu is my roomate,selain Esther,Fify..Ayu share satu katil with me...

sambungan..

SEKIAN LAMA

2009-03-03T22:44:00.002+08:00

SORRYYYYYYY

mmg lama tak update blog ni sejak check in kat 13 january lepas,
sorry sgt cuz i did not have a laptop to use,yg lain ada la kdg2 i pinjam tapi sekejap2 jer just to answer few shout out box comments kat website.
but recently after the 2 nd week 's show my kind friend james wong lend me his personal laptop so dat i can chat and update with people. how cool is that?

anyways, talking about comments and such, my mum told me recently that someone is very upset with my english.. hehehheehits the funniest thing actually not saying that i'm very2 good but boleh la nk ajar2 sket cewaaahh..
actually when i look back at my blog, the ones that i wrote.. actually baru teringat i wrote it secara nk cepat2 semua2 dan tak check balik tapi i rasa its just a few here and there mistake,m not guna write an establish novel katanya hehehe
but this is just a shout out from my heart, a diary so i dunt think those wud make a big fuss.,
tapi takpelah i repaired a few damages here and there.. takpelah..

eyh anyway enough said..
wow last week was a blast...

BOTTOM THREEEEEEE

haiyaaa sedih woo masa tu.. i rasa nk tercabut semua plug2 kat dlm badan..

Another reality show2

2009-01-17T02:07:00.002+08:00

Today is 16 January. .
tomorrow m checking in for training and stay at a place for OIAM
I will tell you the whole story soon!

Another reality show 1

2009-01-14T11:33:00.001+08:00

One In A Million..

what can i say... late october when me n my mother was watching tv..kami pun terlihat lah iklan OIAM 3, So bermula at that p[articular point my mother set back and said she thinks i should enter it..

Masa OIAM1 dulu dh ada yg minta i masuk.. tapi masa tu i rasa tak rasa berminat untuk sertai apa kompetisi.. hehehe to think that let AF3 be the first and the last competition i ever entered.

Thus, now.. bila oiam3.. hati sgt tergerak untuk sertai.. dont know why i rasa teruja sgt untuk join in on this one.Tambahan pula bila dapat restu ibu..

And bila berfikir fikir itu i tahu kenapa i nak masuk.

MY REASON

Semasa dalam akademi fantasia musim-3,i was only 19 years old.. baru start menyanyi 2 tahun.( lebih kurang) dan tiada pengalaman langsung di atas mana2 pentas nyanyian..like i said Af3 was my first competition ever.Lack of knowledge andno confidence i did not deliver any great perfomance secara peribadi.. but i takkan deny that i really work hard for af3 and i did all i can and all my might untuk yang terbaik.

Alhamdulillah the work pays off bila org percaya kan diri, dan got my two feet into the finals..Tuhan saja yg tahu betapa bersyukur nya saya ketika itu.. dan of course thank you a million to all the supporters and voters yang dump their money voting amylea azizan.

3 years gone by,tiada album dan tak dikenali sgt

akan tiba

2009-01-03T15:06:00.001+08:00

AKAN TIBA

When "sindarela'the series ended.My ex manager call me and tell me that ezad is planning a new series
sumthing about food and love.
And wanted me to write the main theme for it.
At first i was a bit confuse on how this will turn out cuz i didnt have any idea how to work on it this time
THen ezad called and explain thru out the movie.. at this point he said it concerns the element of italian thingy;'
so i guess wow.. wut an experiment this cud be,he also tell me how the story is going to be like,t characters,the plot.. basically jalan cerita la..
tapi dia sendiri pun belum tulis skrip lagi nih!
heheheheh
but thats ok i understood and started to imagine how the song will be like
and boleh tak masuk in certain2 scenes..
i wrote few verses and melody.. masa ni mmg tkde tajuk i draft..(gourmet hatiku) wahahhaha ntah pape2 la tu
but the lyrics was a bit different..
masa ni i wrote the song..
watak bront( roni) is singing to his gf Gia
padahal i sepatutnya write roni singing to rona.

so the lyrics was like dis..

c/o

Kau ku rindu
engkaulah yg ku tunggu
tertunggu selama ini
tak ku jumpa
dengannya ku di lamun indah
kau anggap cinta takkan tiba
jika kau tiada,,

if m not mistaken its like dat la..
tak best kan? hehehehe

and then, benda ni draggy lama giler.. i tot cm buat ke tak 'rona roni makaroni ni
i stop working on this song for a while until isma call me..
so i cakap.. i nk sgt dgrkan lagu ni kat ezad duno wut he wud think..
utk pengetahuan umum.. i DO NOT have a recorder at this point.. hilang ntah mana.. alah recorder pakai kaset jer tuh.. erghh dh ada lagu dlm tu semua byk,,.urmm
kurang ajaq toi sape yg curi..
anyway.. back to that..
i met isma..and kinda sing it to him.. at first he didnt like it cuz masa ni lagu ni cam fast..
kononnya cam rancak.. isma cakap tak cukup romantik..
i say,ouhh its nothing.. let me sing it in a slower tempo for u
then baru dia dpt the picture..
i really believe its a nice melody.. so dia ckp ok let us just work on this song nnt bagi ezad dgr..

skip skip...
i told audi la that m doing this song for a drama..
tapi tatau lah if they're guna take it or not..
so i bring my guitar preview kat dia,.,.
hgahah funny.. takde recorder or a simple demo..
isma pun i bwk guitar and preview to him

sum place we discuss nak tambah2 so i balik i tambah2.. tu lah yg dpt bridge tuh..

: ertikanlah.. pagi ku yg kaku.. tanpa kamu..( sebelum ni takde pun)

discuss2 with isma

Isma has listen to few of my songs and he say my song are so maskulin yg badjet lelaki yg nyanyi not perempuan
Well.. i know and well notice of that.. i like to write song more tougher style (in singing) rather then so cute cute girlish stuff.
and so was this song yg takde title lagi jugak pun by this point..

and when i tukar2 the lyrics..jadi..

chorus.

Kau ku cinta
engkaulah yg ku puja
tertunggu selama ini
takku ku jumpa
denganmu ku dilamun indah
ku harap cinta
akan tiba
di hati kita..

and masa ni lyrics dah finalize.i decided i dunt want to sing this song..
i want a guy.. sum1 else of course..terpecah rahsia la bler isma ckp lagu ni lelaki nyanyi i pun ckp tanak nyanyi heheheh

so we sit down and listen to voices that i have in my phone.
skip skip skip..

i had to call my good fren Alif Satar.. and so i know he's really good.. he is willing to sing this song
for me. and agrees to shoot a video!..cool!

and the title 'akan tiba'just got thru my mind terus biler i sing it ...
and terus call isma saying that/.i want "akan tiba' to be the title he also got a good vibe on it and likes it lah..

talking about versionsss

arghh byk kejerrr..

akan tiba main
akan tiba acoustic-alif
akan tiba acoustic-amylea
akan tiba rnb -flava
akan tiba acapella happy-flava
akan tiba acapella sad-flava
akan tiba instrumental..

We did the recording masa bulan puasa,..
so 1st we record the acapella version where the sad version flava did the vocal arrangements while the happy i yg buat..
we didnt use much of it anyways,,hahha

and we recorded Rnb version..mm satu masalah tu,cuz we had problems on how making this versions works.. by arrangements and stuf.. cool that flava dudes were all so commited to the task.. thanks guys..

Recorded Alif.. both version the same day..woah.. i betul2 perah tenaga frm alif.. but he smiles all the way to the end .. and pull it off. it was so cool!
thank you thank you.. i hope u puas ati on the producing side ok!

We had different mixing di sebabkan time and budget i guess..
both alif version Audi yg tolong mix..was so awesome doing the old radio effects and all that.

my version and flava were mixed by JD from Pop Shuvit.

and all were mastered by Nick Lee.. cHANTEK GILER LA STUDIO DIER MAK AIHHH..

ok..i hope that one day i can use that studio for any of my song recordings.. mahal sikit la.. but yeahh mesti worth it ..

And so we shoot the video..i went and teman alif,and just to be there when they shoot it..just wanna be a part of it..
it was so cool.. i just cant believe they're using my song for this drama..:D:D:D:D:D
sukerrnyerrr

akan tiba

song&lyrics: Amylea

Produced by: Amylea,Isma Yusoof,Ash'BAU'

Arrangements: Pam Yuen

After so long and so much! sept 08

2008-09-12T20:09:00.001+08:00

Hi..
wow, i have not been writing in my blog since last april..and it was months ago..
I have been thru a lot and i cant possibly tell it all to u..

I have gain a lot of things..learn and feel bitter thru out the months..that i just cant get my self to write anything on this diary,.
Finally today i'm ready to speak out again and share my wonders and dreams..
Let's start!

Majlis Amal untuk Anak2 yatim di Country Homes,Rawang

2008-04-17T18:05:00.000+08:00

(Friday 11th April)

Last friday,i went to Rawang,another charity activity frm the same Orphan Home, i did before.
It was really fun singing for the beautiful kids..
They're so fun to chat with and very sporting,they followed me up on the stage and dance together to the song i was singing.

Later that night,i also went hang out with an old friend..Azlif from AF3's prelude.So long that i havent seen him.He's in town for a shoot with Astro the next morning.
He was with few friends finding stuffs for the shoot.
We had supper together near to my place...Cool..

Sunday,13th April

Signing Session For Berita Publishing

Went for the I remaja/Berita Publishing signing session at PWTC (Putra World Trade Centre).
Was quite a fun evening,besides the fact i had to wait for two hours to get a cab..yea..i dont have any transport to go anywhere cuz my manager is away in Kelantan
Gladly i finally found my self a ride,and made it there finally!

Then i went to KLCC,YES alone..
hhahaha..but i just need to buy some stuff.Was home around 8pm.Fhewww wut a day! Guess what..few hours after that i was not feeling very well..:(

Sempena Maulidur Rasul

2008-04-07T16:32:00.000+08:00

Yesterday i went for a charity event held by Kelab Anak Yatim Semalaysia.
It was so awesome!!
" Konvoi Kembara Kasih" di sertai oleh lebih 200 kereta mewah.So i was in a BMW drived by Reza n his lovely Ayu,with anak2 yatim who lives in Cheras,Zura 15 and Yana 6,

I was picked up at home around 7am,then
drived to Puchong where all the orphans and other celebrities were gathered.
We had our breakfast and had good chats before we start the event.
Other celebs were,Ramli MS,Dato Aziz Sattar,my teachers,Adnan Abu Hassan and Siti Hajar,vice president of Karyawan Radhi Khalid,Syeda,Zally Husein and few more.

There i was taken throught out kl,its just so awesome
when you're escorted with police bikes..so practically we caused such jam in KL yesterday hahahahhah

Our last stop was Putrajaya,
we finally had lunch at 4pmheheheh
and presented gifts to all the orphans and single mothers.
Was raining after the event ended..Hujan rahmat tue..

The hard thing was i had to cancel with Iremaja signing session that suppose to be at 3pm..i didnt know that its gunna be drag so late.
the event was suppose to end around 2pm.
but there's nothing i can do.
so hopefully next week i will make it to PWTC

Arrived home around 7..was so exhausted. and missing somebody huhu

2008-04-03T14:33:00.001+08:00

AFTER ABP 2007

2008-04-03T14:27:00.000+08:00

Turun je from Genting,around 3 sumthing..went straight to Biro Karyawan meeting held in Karyawan office in PJ,
We have discussed programs and promotion strategy to get more new artists to join us in this new Biro.

We were thinking of putting up a get together party,sumthing like "Layar Tanchap'( to those who dont know what'Layar Tanchap' is,
its a 'santai jamming session..heheh
so anybody can pick up a mic and sing and show their talent.
Not like a karaoke,mostly people who really have talents to show..hehehe
So,we believe this way can attract young new artsist to come and join the Biro.
Have said that,we will announce when and where it will be held...and everybody from the local scene can join the party!

After the meeting that took around 3 hours,i head up to Damansara Perdana,to record the malay version of 'When We Dance' with joe Flizzow.
I was quite happy with the result.Technically that's the last track for my album!
And i cant wait to release it!!
its such a good song..thank you so much Joe!

>>>selepas 3 coming soon!!

2008-04-03T13:57:00.004+08:00

Anugerah Bintang Popular

2008-04-03T12:50:00.001+08:00

Hi all..

Talking about Anugerah Bintang Popular,I got nominated last year for Top 5 Artis Baru Popular.I had a memorable experience going to all the states promoting the event.
I had fun,tho never thought people still support me to that level.
It doesnt matter you win or you dont but having fans supporting you,It means everything.

This year,wearing yet again from Amir Luqman's latest collection..A fusion batik short dress.Perfect for this year's theme..Batik Glamour!
I was with my manager,and Amir Luqman,
Got few shots frm the nite..not much tho,i tend to forget to take pictures..

Walk the red carpet with Mr Imran Ajmain..too bad we didnt have any personal photos together but here i cilok from sensasi selebriti! Thanx Imran,

Biro Artis Muda Karyawan

2008-03-26T00:51:00.000+08:00

(25th of march,15:00)Today i attend a meeting held by Karyawan Malaysia,
Karyawan dah cipta another Biro called "Biro Artis Muda"

I was late because of the wrong information given..
(wish i could eloborate on that but its ok i am happy at the end of the day)

We had sum issues featured out in the 2 hours meeting,problems,issues,cases that need to be sort out.
I said sumthing in the meeting which was about an alocate,or support for new artists who has passion in music and wants to further their knowledge in music education.

The people in the room agreed with me when i say,most new artists looks really 'gah' ..but the 'poket'is also'kering' sumtimes.Especially to pay for music studies(really expensive)
I wonder if Karyawan can help these artists to be better and increase quality.
The response from Mr. Freddie Fernandez was positive.I hope sumthing will happen.

At the end of the meeting,they wanted to have few volunteered to be the commitee members.I did,cause i know i want and can help.
There's so many things i want to accomplish in this life.
Never want to be just a singer,So like i;ve said to the reporter,i want to be a part of this
sebab i want to help those people yang ada ultimate passion to learn and make music of their own but never had the chance to do so.
Writing,producing,composing is a satisfying feeling.
Sindarela has make me feel so confident that i can make this happen.
To any other artists,who always dream to write song to start a new agenda do say sumthing..
We'll be having our 1st meeting as a team next monday.(can email me at amyleaazizan@gmail.com)
And will reveal the other 8 commitee standing side by side with me.
Hopefully everybody can work together to achieve each others mission.

This Biro is not just for singers also for actors..we have a commitee member who's in charge of new actors.

Me? a DIVA?

2008-03-24T01:06:00.000+08:00

Hye all,I just read a comment made by one of local reporter about one of AF6 contestant.
Someone link it to me,
Well,basically was praising the contestant how she excel last nite's concert,which i personally think she did.

Yang membuatkan i tertanya tanya,why did he mention my name as a comparison to the contestant,saying that "he hope she wont be a diva in the academy?>>like amylea
Wow,that's very ethical..i wonder when he went into the academy and knew mcm mana perangai i at that time.

I admit my days in the academy i'm very outspoken,i work hard because i really enjoy the learning process and neglect the fact that i was making foes by not being "real friendly"

Salah ke if i wanted to be my self?
I'm the kind of person who is more dedicate to my parents than friends.
i do not go out and hang with friends way before i went into the academy.To me
masa tu,i was just living with a bunch of 13 strangers.
I am sorry but i dont think i can share all my secrets by just knowing all of them in 3 weeks.
jadi i am "kera sumbang" or what not people wanted to call me.

From 730am in the morning until 10 pm at nite we go to classes together,eat together,dance together,
do almost everything together.
The only time i have for my self is when dah abes class and sampai asrama.

I nak mandi,relax,listen to my lagu for the week.
cuz i dont listen to it all thetime in the academy..everybody has their own way.hafal lirik
i really really enjoy that..
I dont have a phone to talk to my mum n dad( if people who knows me personally they will know how close i am with my mother n father)
So,is it a crime for me not to join the party next door?
Yes they were having fun,chatting,and giggling about stuffs in the other room..
and i dont think what they did is a crime either
Its just that,
i need room for my self before i went nuts in there.
I'm just different frm other teenagers..
but i am certainly NOT a diva,
Diva stand for sombong in my dictionary
and to muslim
Sombong itu hanya sifat ALLAH
so i shall forget about having that attitude in my life
Yet,i dont have anythign to be proud of..i am still struggling to live this life.And happens i do not kiss aS* just to get the attention from the paper.
I hope people will only write because of a success that i did.
Anyways,
I hope the contestant frm af6 will get even better,i spoke to my lovely friend and teacher Linda Jasmine,she also gave good comments about her.
Oh ya,and so you guys know,,
i am still am so close with all the teachers..
if i'm such a stuck up..i dunt think they will still talk to me.

thanx a lot...

Malam Karyawan Agung Tan Sri P.Ramlee n Konsert AF6 pertama

2008-03-23T19:38:00.001+08:00

Last nite,22nd of march,
I had a show with Karyawan,was a tribute to Allahyarham Tan Sri P.Ramlee,i sang "Bila Larut Malam"

It was a good show,people were very happy,and anticipated with the quizes as well.
I had fun!
Sweet memories,performing side by side with all senior artists..such as Ahmad Fauzee,Musly Ramlee,Mimi Loma,S.Azli,R.Ismail and few others..
I know sum people really dont know who they are,but they were singing sensations once upon a time ago.And yet still got lovely voices..Plus
ada Datuk Sarimah and others were watching as special guests.

My manager will post the video to You Tube soon..hurry James!

>>>Konsert Af6 Yang Pertama.

Disebabkan 'ada' show,i did not get the chance to watch it live,'tapi' still watch ulangan around 12 o'clock today.
After the show last nite we went 'makan' and i've read so many comments at @15 carpet.Thats why i've got to watch it.
To be honest,
it was what i expected to be..a bit dull with the singing,
and perfomance yg ok was Nadia and Riz,watched radar aka diary af this week,i felt what Riz is going thru..i hope he'll stay strong and continue to study and shine thru the weeks to come.

I dont understand few students in AF6 who i think,not suitable to be in there,
I hope they will try to concentrate on learning and pick up the pace..cuz its too slow,,

Ac?
He was quite ok,people were just giving him too much of expectations
And the spot as AF host is a big shoe to fill.
Aznil will always be "the" host of AF.
bt i hope ac stay strong and just carry on his way.
Good luck guys for next week!

Suria FM Interview 14th Of March

2008-03-21T14:49:00.001+08:00

Had an interview with Akhtar at Suria Fm,had really great time with her,
We finished around 930pm,

Here's my pic with akhtar that nite!

ergrhh

2008-03-15T18:31:00.000+08:00

18:29

Erghh..I just arrive home from Batang Berjuntai,woah..sooo far..soo tired...
Need rest..
Relaxing at home watching tv wud be just nice!

>>pics with the students commitee members!

........

2008-03-14T09:26:00.001+08:00

New One!

2008-03-13T16:55:00.000+08:00

2008-03-13T16:50:00.001+08:00

The Signature

2008-03-13T16:26:00.000+08:00

Since i was 13..i create and use signature ni..
kiranya klu time exam i will sign at the back of the papers..(cam bagus ah.)
Sampailah last year i decided to change so i did.

And dptlah a new signature..dari prespektif ramai,sign yg lama tu,the old signature just brings negative aura..heheheh
so this is what i decide to use frm now on...

2008-03-13T15:33:00.001+08:00

>> this picture taken frm af5 finals..
af1-af 4 nak g menuju puncak ramai2
Sweeeeeett

AF6

2008-03-13T15:07:00.003+08:00

AKADEMI FANTASIA (musim ke 6)

Wow,af dh 6thn ..thats really cool but..
sum say its getting boring.. i have no idea..
hopefully xde la boring..

And dh tgk 25 org yg dicalonkan pelajar af6..
and still xtau sape yg akan dpt sape yg akan say gudbye awal2...
Knowing the reality of the show,masa my time dulu...we have Prelude Concert..which sent 8 contestants balik umah..termasuk Mawi and Marsha..the famous M&M
while mawi n marsha came back to the show and lasted with me n felix until the finals..
Lagi 6??
Not one person ever ask where they've gone..how crushed their dreams were..
Sebab telah diberi 'kezutan' yg tak sepatutnya diberikan....arghh(takleh bygkan if i yg rasa apa yg diorang rasa)
Yg masih in contact with me is Azlif( the pink guy) hheehhehe still in JB singing...
and Shiha..still singing.. got her a job singing kat Cerana Restaurant,Cheras
Yg lain..i have no idea..i lost contact...oh ya..Rina is back with an album..Gudluck dear..

So persoalannya how's af6 guna be?
beberapa org akan tersingkir awal2..
very hurtful,my heart goes out to them...and harap2..yg layak utk musim ke 6 nie..betul2 naikkan semangat af kembali,..
I'm way past the AF life,three years aredi...i'm leaving that title..:)
One of the most memorable time of my life!

nyawwww

2008-03-13T14:48:00.000+08:00

The cat in The family

2008-03-13T14:40:00.000+08:00

we have a cat..named wana(mirwana) kucing tina..
So last year gave birth to 5 kittens..
yg sulung tu(betina) dh bg kat org dan skrg namanya sandy
2nd..dh bg org juga..tatau la nasib dia..4th mati..5th pun mati..
so yg 3rd tu masih dgn kami cuz dia ni lain sikit..
I love him!!
POLO his name is
We love him soo much

2008-03-13T14:37:00.000+08:00

>> this book ni is my planner sum might say..where i tulis all my schedule and things to do!!..

2008-03-13T14:25:00.000+08:00

2008-03-13T14:13:00.001+08:00

2008-03-13T14:09:00.000+08:00

Amylea's Favourite BOOK..

2008-03-13T13:07:00.001+08:00

Memperkenalkan Starbook.Introducing Starbook..sebut betul2..
heheheheh

Ni gambar posing buku kesayangan i..i really love this book,..its hard getting this book..
Kena kumpul stickers,luckily i got it in just two days!!!(i dont have to drink that much..just got them from nice people who donates their stickers to me heeee)
they dont want it so...YAY!

How Alia dengki nya kat i..hua hua hua..

The SinDarEla Song story

2008-03-12T21:48:00.002+08:00

I got the chance to write a song for tv3's latest drama ,directed by Shahrulezad>>called 'Sindarela'
At 1st i had to find a composer to do the song for me,
yelah mcm biasa penyanyi cari komposer,tapi lain pulak jadinya,when i couldn't find anyone to do the song for me,
Dengan budget yang mm well..tiada.
So called up my old friend..We went to high school together
it was on the 27th of december..yes..i tulis tarikh tu dlm buku fav i!! (i got it frm drinking at Starbucks with a lot of ppl,to get this fab book u have to drink at starbucks pastu kumpul stickers,17 all together)
Anyways..So i call him up
Without any hesitations dia terus ckp YES,wanted to help me out..

So 2 days after that..dia siap buat demo for me..simple ones that my manager James Wong and my buddy Isma Yusoof to give it to Ezad to hear it..Rough ones..just nk bg ezad dgr lagu tu berentak yg dia mintak..(was in Langkawi that time)

Sampai je KL,on the 2nd,mlm tu i went to Hartamas utk dgr musicians jam' lagu tu..
At the moment,we dont have a melody or lyrics.

So i dh pening..but was excited as well,the arranger made sumthing that exactly we wanted it to be..
After the jamming session,we went minum n lepak sebentar while my head spinning for a while..
i have few verses yg i sempat tulis di Langkawi

Ini yg wujud masa tu>>>
Perlukah aku
Menanti dirimu
Dengan dirinya mengagungkan aku

Mestikah aku
Pergi bersamanya
Dengan dirimu sentiasa ku puja
t
hen lepas sembang2,kitaorang blk umah James sekejap nk brainstorming sikit katanya..heheheh
Me n Isma did the chorus
Masa jamming i wrote down..'Aku ..akulah sindarela..hatiku/angan/mimpi ntah apa2 lagi

So Isma n me just wrap it off with >>
Aku..akulah sindarela
Hatiku diriku
Anganku..mimpiku
Cerita hidupku
Akulah sindarela..
the lalalala comes 2 days after that masa tgh syok nyanyi rasa kena tambah sikit hehhehehe

Then kitaorang siapkan rangka for the 2nd verse yg akhirnya slepas ditukar sikit
>>
Sanggupkah aku
Hilangkan mimpi ku
Apa yang ku perlu antara keinginanku

Adakah aku
Harus memilihnya
Bila dirimu sentiasa ku puja

I was a bit moody mlm tu,cuz ntah la..i'm always emo.hahahha
James ngan Isma dah gelak2..sbb sore i dh jadi cam 'tut'

I balik,dgn pesanan ringkas..dari Isma..
Esok siapkan lirik dgn melodi please..ntah la napa balik mlm tu i cant access thru the internet(to listen to the rough song frm my email) there fore,i just tertido..
wake up je..terus cam gelabah..

I listen to it twice..
then i terus type (usually i write it down atas kertas)
this is what i wrote n didnt change it at all..straight frm the heart..frm the chordings i heard bersama sama melodinya..
>>>>
Dan bila hadirmu
Mengaburi hatiku
Meniti waktu mengisi saat kisah dongengku

Lakaran bahagiamu itu
Menjanjikan aku
Hanya akan..
Selalu di dlm anganku

So Isma online masa tu,i sent itvia YM and email.
gedebak gedebuk..Ezad liked it..(thanx)
so ptg tu i went with the arranger and the rest of the gang to our keyboardist .
I sang it
how the melody goes
and how the lyrics goes

the song was longer..
we did sum cutting in between..
etc etc...

We had a lot of tribulance in the making..
Tuhan saja yg tau..
but in the end we finally dpt hantar dkt ezad..
and tv3

But yet..
we also had to do 3 more versions of the song..thus,there were sindarela acoustic,
sindarela slow,sindarela piano and music box.
thanx to farouk and the musicians involved...

overall..
i owe Abg pacheye the highest gratitude..
cuz he help me record it dekat 'Vision Works' for the vocals and mixing and editing yg agung utk musicnya..Thanx a lot abg pacai...!!!

Ouh ya..
Isma help me do the photography of Sindarela EP cover,was so cool i lovee it!
(lucky me)And James has help me go thru this a lot!..woo hoo..sampai skrg pun masih tak habis kan??heheh
Dan tada...itu lah lahirnya 'Aku Sindarela' frm me..wow mmg susah gile..producing a song..but i want to do it again!!
I hope i cud do a video for this song..i want Ghaz Abu Bakar to do it..nnt lah..bilo kayo sikit..heheheheh

That's the story of Sindarela OST

My first day Blogging

2008-03-12T21:28:00.000+08:00

Hello there,(salam)
My name is Amylea Azizan,
tatau la nape..i really want to try this blogging thing..

been reading afdlin's blog..it's really nice to share sum interesting thought/activities with others..
xdelah org ckp saya senyap ajer..hehehe ye lah..i dunt really been on papers often cuz..xde kontroversi utk dijaja kan.

I always write my thoughts on a piece of paper,so now cam canggih la on the internet!!..Anyway gudluck for me..yeahxxxx